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Saturday, October 3rd, 2015 08:14 am
Not that it matters, but i think Lost Girl's plots and writing went completely down hill after she met The Wanderer for the second time. The dialogue during the finale was awful. I was thinking, since that concludes the episodes available on Netflix, that perhaps they were canceled and their heart wasn't in it -- but no, there's a season five.


My brother's visit on Thursday afternoon went pleasantly, although i lost him in Target too many times. Got exercise doing laps around the store though while he collected Halloween candy, clothes for the kids, costumes, toys, and clothes for himself to take back to Singapore.

Did i mention that we bought new porcelain dishes? In my periodic "three things to make things better" i have been frustrated with the silverware marks on the stoneware. It's clear that scrubbing with something like Bon Ami is the answer, but it is a very annoying answer. I switched to our very nice flatware and that didn't make a difference. I've been pondering how we have plenty of fine porcelain plates (compared to how often we would use them), but they have a metallic rim. I saw a set of porcelain dishes marked down to roughly $10 a place setting (which is incredibly cheap) in a pattern that was agreeable and splurged. It is a whiter white than our fine porcelain pattern but the greys on both match. In general it doesn't look completely mismatched.

Meeting issues on my mind. Meeting a friend at the Sunnyvale Farmer's market before spending some hours in a clerking meeting discussing the state of the meeting.
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Sunday, September 27th, 2015 07:40 am
The week was pretty disjointed. Ill Tuesday and Wednesday, i fought to work through the day Tuesday, and read novels much of Wednesday. Early morning presentation by the executives at the company on Thursday left me dissatisfied after ninety minutes of platitudes and biz speak. Friday, another early meeting.

--== ∞ ==--

Yesterday was the Harvest Festival. I did some sales in the morning at our jewelry table (where the Swarovski rivoli earrings i made several years ago have still not sold). At "full price" from rummage i bought a dated Samsonite bag that will be perfect as a work tote ($1). (Aha, a quick image search turns up one from eBay; tweaked image search for SAMSONITE "SILHOUETTE 4" Pink Tweed".) I also acquired an apparently never opened small cuisinart-like device ($4). I don't know if it can chop herbs as finely as i would like, but i'd been thinking about trying to find something similar.

I returned at the end of the day to help with the jewelry booth, but the woman running it clearly did not want help. So i wandered the rummage during the period of everything that fits in a paper grocery sack for $3. Miracle of miracles the Calphalon 12" pan was left. Regrettably it's from the nonstick line, not the basic commercial grade simply hard-anodized surface. Also in the bag, yarn.

I tried very hard not to fill the bag, but, so it goes.

The evening effort of dissembling the tables, old doors and saw horses made of plywood, has left me stiff this morning. Of course, everything, including a few minutes Friday night going up and down stairs as minimal exercise, leaves me stiff.

--== ∞ ==--

$399,000 Mobile home in Half Moon Bay. There's a parcel number - so maybe the land is included? (It's also a 55+ community, so we'd have to wait... but it's not that far away.)

Now wondering if Pacific coast trailer parks, free of tornados, become tsunami magnets.....
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Monday, September 21st, 2015 05:32 am
This was a weekend of intense research into what plants i am likely to find in the Panoche Hills. I am now prepared to write for a collecting permit. I also polished some gold flatware and got a good photo of the full four place setting set of china. I've started the packing of the pieces, trying to make cardboard structures to cushion the china. I have done very little otherwise.

I was silly and thought i'd look at all rare plants in a large region, cutting out the ones that needed too much rain or were adapted to serpentine soils. After much sifting and review of observations, i think i excluded all the plants that weren't near by my place of interest. So.... i could have started with a limit just around my place of interest.

I do look forward to getting down to the hills again. The white hills fascinate me with the rhythmic repetitive curves and the wonderful interplays of light. This weekend was a bit of a heatwave. Today's high for the town near the hills is 101 °F. I think i need to get back into shape before i can manage that. Soon it will cool and we'll drive down after work some evening, stay in a hotel off I-5, and i'll wake at first light to go drive into the hills. I've picked a few exploration spots - areas where the soil types change. It seems like that will maximize the likelihood of finding interesting plants. There are a number of rare plants that are still in "bloom" at this time of year. The blooms are not very showy, but they're doing their part for the ecosystem. Indeed, the amaranth family may look "weedy" but the seeds are surely a food source for critters.

I blew off some responsibilities this weekend, and was terribly sedentary. Must get some movement in if field work is going to be pleasant!
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Thursday, September 17th, 2015 06:05 am
Yesterday evening Christine and i had a long and involved discussion about cladograms and phylogeny. Cladograms are the visual representation of an analysis of DNA that reveals the relatedness of organisms. I'd bumped into something that she had a strong concern about in a conversation months ago, and yesterday there was a NSF announcement of grants for "GoLife" - the "Genealogy of Life." Christine knew that the cladograms she'd seen in arguments that "birds are dinosaurs" were missing meaningful information; i showed her a cladogram of the asteraceae family. It prints out on an over seven foot wide poster. She's right that generally that much detail gets abstracted away and a diagram that represents the topology of the results is what is presented.

Her point is that while some folks may understand that the diagrams are severely abstracted not everyone does. Also, she has a language point. "Birds are dinosaurs" is not the same as "Class aves is in the clade Ornithurae of the clade Dinosauria." There is a good reason the Latinate endings get shoved on the end when naming groups: the convention has a meaning.

--== ∞ ==--

Instead of just a long conversation for our evening, we then turned on the videos and watched two hours of entertainment. And i didn't pick up my knitting. And i had ice cream. So, yay for an intellectually engaging evening and points off for staying up too late, eating desert, and not exercising.

Another success was going through a stack of papers and purging it. Goodbye Yuletide cards and articles i wanted to follow up on and so on. I want to get to where i am able to have a healthy communication flow and not have things stack up. If i could set aside N minutes each day and get to where i can keep up with incoming and do some amount of back log care, i could imagine a steady state. But i have a hard time imagining that N minute a day discipline.

--== ∞ ==--

California news: wildfire evacuees, check. Jerry Brown & Republicans debating climate change, check. Tsunami warnings ... wait, what?
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Monday, September 14th, 2015 06:15 pm
So, i'm threatening to make curtains if Christine will investigate curtain hardware. We have two pairs of sliding glass doors. I love all the light but Christine isn't so fond. We've had highly annoying vertical blinds that have been disintegrating since we moved in. I wonder if she'd like the windows better if there were decent drapes. It's just straight seams, right?

IKEA has in a fabric botanical print with a purple-gold-green color scheme. It might be very close to some of the carpet squares we have. It is, at least, a similar scheme. I hope to get to IKEA today to get a sample of the fabric and some storage boxes for the china sets.

My morning tea water didn't really boil this morning. The electric kettle became cranky, so i put the tea pot on the stove. (It's a heavy ceramic designed to be used as a kettle as well.) That seemed to take forever. I don't feel well prepared for the day.

--==∞ LATER ∞==--
Template: Filling the Form

1. Work space
* Get through loose papers and stay caught up
* Digital workspace clutter
>> I am clearly taking on too many little administrative tasks. So many, "oh yes, i'll deal with that" moments as i go through email and mail. I need to let things pass by more often.

2. Car/transportation
* Happy with car
* I threaten to get back on the scooters to practice for taking caltrain.

3. Kitchen
* Continue to conquer clutter
* New dishes are a temptation due to all the flatware marks.

4. Living room
(Curtain discussion)

5. Bedroom
* In clearing off the top of my dresser, i noticed more things that could be donated or packed away.
* i'm developing more discipline around cleaning chores -- but room for improvement

6. Wardrobe
* Still pretty pleased
* Have tights to get together for winter
* two more slips?

7. Reading list or entertainment plans
* No video nights are happening more often
* See exercise habits

8. Exercise habits

9. Eating habits

10. Spiritual/intellectual maintenance
* I'm hoping to re-enliven my worship (but i do fear some of the depth is dulled by my antidepressants)
* Plenty of challenge coming up in the community
* I'm in an odd place with my mind with respect to work: i hope the workgroup mental block breaks soon.

Take the list or similar, and quickly dash off three small things in each area that can be done to improve your quality of being. Then set aside. Repeat the process some time later (a quarter? "ten week" period?) and then review the previous one. Tag taw@w & ftf
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Wednesday, September 9th, 2015 06:15 am
Within the last week, mornings were cool enough that I felt the need to start warming up the teapot before making tea in it. Now we have a heat wave and i wish i'd made tea the night before.

I've started watching The Newsroom with Christine, an Aaron Sorkin show. I've decided that Aaron Sorkin's next series should be The School Board: plenty of chance for human relationships and drama, plus plenty of opportunities for sermons on democracy. I like that about Sorkin's work. The Newsroom has two narrative threads about relationships that are approaching tedious. I do like how they've characterized the man the young woman will probably leave for the other guy: he's not bad or obviously abusive. Instead he's just a bit patronizing, certain he's doing important work, and missing chances to affirm her work.

We watched Titanic over the weekend and the aristocratic fiancé of the female romantic lead was just awful, over the top. Although i suppose the whole movie was over the top. Back to Sorkin, it is nice to see the guy to be left behind in a romanic triangle have "normal" behaviors held up for scrutiny, as opposed to obvious abusiveness.


I spent much of the weekend researching my Grandmámá's amazing life, starting with the lumber mill in Brazil at which she spent her first five years.

A friend of mine met Grandmámá recently and heard her share some of those early Brazil stories. Afterwards my friend noted how amazing was Grandmámá's life -- and how caught up in the imperial extraction machinery of the early 20th century was her life. And it really was. I suppose i can stretch that thread across and connect it to how she supported herself working for Ma Bell as an adult: from that imperialist extraction era to the communication era?


Much of the blues faded away and i have concluded that they were rooted in my endocrine system more than anything else. On Sunday i felt a clear sense that it is time to move forward with some things where i have been in a bit of a holding pattern due to elephants.

I explained the elephant metaphor in July 2014, but elephant care has been very heavy this summer. I'm not quite sure when it got as heavy to carry as it did. In February of this year Christine was still able to cope to a certain extent, but at some point in the spring -- she might point to when her tooth broke as the tipping point -- elephant issues became the overriding concern of the house.

It seems with the fading of summer and the arrival of cooler weather, i have a sense that i could breathe deeply again, no longer hold my breath. This heat wave, i have to remind myself, is not directly related to the issues of elephants, and i can still breathe deeply again.
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Monday, August 31st, 2015 06:17 am
Thursday, Christine wrote:

Our farewell to Mr. Montague was a precious, peaceful, painless, utterly trusting one around 10:30am (PT) this morning. ... His was an attentive, caring, fiercely protective, and noble soul. We are so grateful that we were able to provide him with this final gesture of our love and respect.

We drove up into the mountains to deliver him [to the potter who also does pet cremations], and then down to the sea for a few hours where we could hear the ocean purr and our salty tears fell amidst tide pools of memories; our cries were answered by sea birds on the wing who could miraculously lift our hearts onto the breeze, all of us together -- for a moment -- again.

Thank you all for your expressions of sympathy and condolences. They mean a great deal.

Friday we started talking about Edward. He's pretty much run wild the past handful of months as Christine hasn't had the heart to say "no" or ignore him when he asks to go out. I found a website about cat training (not all of which seemed appropriate for our situation), and we negotiated from there. We've started a practice of carrying him out to a bench in the little yard area near our unit, holding him and chatting with him, before we return in leaving him there. We are going to the same place to collect him. We've talked with the neighbors where he hangs out and asked them not to feed him. So that's been some distraction, especially while he's inside, trying to retrain us to let him out.
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Wednesday, August 26th, 2015 07:14 am
This morning i found in my Associate Clerk inbox a letter from the clerk of NCYM-FUM, the North Carolina Yearly Meeting of Friends that aligns itself with the anti-universalist branch of the Society of Friends (Friend United Meeting). He writes that three meetings have been released from their membership in that Yearly Meeting. Two (Poplar Ridge and Holly Spring) because they were involved in funding the formation of a new yearly meeting and one (New Garden) because it holds membership in another yearly meeting.

Reading a March summary from Chuck Fager (http://quakertheology.org/Preview-QT-26-03-01-2015.pdf), my interpretation of the action of North Carolina Yearly Meeting-FUM is this:

* Poplar Ridge is almost indistinguishable from a Baptist Church;
* Polar Ridge's pastor wanted to reduce the theological diversity of NCYM-FUM by insisting that all Meetings be aligned with NCYM-FUM and no other Quaker bodies.
* New Garden is the meeting most targeted because it is in fellowship with the more liberal branches of Friends "New Garden Friends Meeting is an inclusive, welcoming Christian faith community. Our members and attenders represent a wide range of religious backgrounds and traditions. Grounded in more than 250 years of Quaker heritage, New Garden remains a vital Meeting for those who seek that of God in every person." [Code word inclusive means they welcome LGBTQ members.]
* Poplar Ridge's attempt to dominate the Yearly Meeting business by demanding unity in theological stance has been incredibly divisive.
* The Yearly Meeting executive body, witnessing that Poplar Ridge had finally crossed a line in beginning exploration of starting a new Yearly meeting, had grounds to release Poplar Ridge and its financial partner Holly Spring before the gathering of the whole where the dissent and tumult would be even more charged. Unfortunately, by applying this particular judgement of a line to the disruptive and demanding meetings, they needed to equally apply it to the more universalist meeting that maintained a membership in a second yearly meeting.

So, i read this as a trimming of two extremes from the Yearly Meeting.

Ah, here's Chuck's more up-to-date blog post: http://afriendlyletter.com/breaking-carolina-bombshell-three-nc-meetings-expelled-will-it-stand/

It seems my reading aligns with his.

I'll note that were i to move to North Carolina i *might* sojourn with a North Carolina Yearly Meeting
(Conservative) meeting, but i could not join one. I would not be interested in any meeting that was aligned with NCYM-FUM -- except with the possibility of the expelled New Garden Friends Meeting. I'd be more at home at a Meeting that was part of Piedmont Friends Fellowship and Yearly Meeting. I've happily joined Friends at the Chapel Hill Friends Meeting in the past.
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Monday, August 24th, 2015 05:11 pm
In more selling off the china news (I suppose this is tedious to read about, but it's a bit of an adventure for me):
Read more... )
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Saturday, August 22nd, 2015 07:26 am
Housing ponder for this morning: East Oakland, just really how much crime are we talking about? (It's remarkable how many houses for sale in the low budget end are available.) I'll note that we are looking for houses that won't require a dramatic change in our housing budget. Between the crazy upsurge in the past few years and our budget landlord, we are comparatively spoiled for housing costs.

This morning Mr M has left his corner to come join us on the bed. This is so remarkable after weeks of his hiding in nooks. He's been sitting on my chest purring away. Such a delightful gift. Meanwhile his spine and legs seem simply skeletal.

I signed onto skillshare yesterday for a free sketching tutorial (Digital Drawing Workout: The Art of Subtraction). It was a pleasant diversion. There are also food photography tutorials which seem likely to align with my china shoot needs. The system is offering three months for 99¢, so i went ahead for the trial. It's not my preferred mode for learning, but it may provide the inspiration needed to pull off the etsy sales photos. (I also think there seem to be plenty of similar tutorials on youtube; the difference is there is theoretically a learning community at skillshare.)

This morning i've a planning meeting for a visioning process for Meeting. I'm trying to get in the right mind frame for it: the reading i've been doing just doesn't fit. I suppose thinking about moving and the elephant issues have not helped. I'm preoccupied with how to find sustainability day to day: i've not been thinking about helping the Meeting find such sustainability.
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Friday, August 21st, 2015 12:43 pm
This morning i am imagining life in Concord, CA. Transit.511.org helps me estimate what the commute would be like on public transit: over two hours one way. It's mostly on BART, one of the area rail systems, and so it could be useful time for reading and writing. Wikitravel makes me laugh:
Concord is located 29 miles east of San Francisco, meaning that the commute through the Caldecott Tunnel and across the Bay Bridge can be done in approximately thirty minutes when traffic is light, and in less than a week when traffic is heavy.
Would a two hour ride be better than a one hour drive? (Especially when the one hour is so uncertain?) I imagine four hours of reading the interwebs and writing twice a week might be pleasant. (Admittedly this is with the rose filter on at maximum strength.)

The linens arrived for the china sets. This means this weekend can be spent in photographing pieces. I'm still trying to decide how many place settings for the dining set that includes the serving dish: six or four? I'm convinced the tea set should be for six. And, it's time to commit to the second attempted replacement tea pot.

Edward has coming home during the day, twice now Hurrah! His regular presence and comfort staying inside certainly reduces Christine's worry.
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Monday, August 10th, 2015 06:18 am

I took Friday off for Mental Health. We drove straight over the Santa Cruz mountains on tiny windy roads, myself at the wheel, no rush. Lunch in Pescadero, not at famous Duarte's (thirty minute wait) but at the Country Store restaurant up the street. Then to Bean Hollow State Beach where we meditated on the waves and i visited tide pools.

I've bid on two sets of gold flatware to go with the china. One set is won, and that will cover the tea set and the six settings without tea cups. Another set looks to be almost won at a sweet agreeable price. I've bought the matching linens. Soon the fashion photography will begin.

It looks like mis-matched china teasets are going for hundreds of dollars on etsy. Hopefully, the additional elements i'm adding will get the premium price i am hoping for.

I didn't attend Meeting but did some research on visioning process for Meeting as well as some discussions about elephant herding with Christine.

Work starts in fifteen minutes with conference calls for a standards group outside work.

Before we begin the home buying process in earnest here in California, i believe i will be asking my directory and manager whether i could keep my job if we moved to NC. This sort of timing issue would be gone then, and we wouldn't be buying on the Hayward fault (and probably within reach of sea level rise).
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Friday, August 7th, 2015 07:09 am
Wonderful evening with two rain showers, a few flashes of lightning, and distant rolls of thunder. The heady scent of summer rain: if i hadn't been back east and caught in downpours in Tampa, i would have found it even more magical.

Summer rain is so very very rare here, even when it's not a drought.

Reading the twitter hashtag on the GOP debate depressed me. Admittedly, my sense of cheer is at a distance due to some concerns that i am carrying.
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Saturday, July 4th, 2015 07:29 am
AWOL again (where i'm the one who grants leave).

I disappeared into reading another stack of space opera books for a couple of days. I know i'm escaping, i know what i am escaping: i suppose this is a sign i should try and find a therapist to talk to. The goal would be the coaching that i seem to not be managing on my own right now.

On the other hand, i wonder if i can motivate myself with the 120-90 minute a week budget that therapy would take (Transit time, included). meta talking to myself )


We watched the movie Mr Turner last night. There's a review at IMDB that faults the movie for being "a series of largely disjointed vignettes." It's true it misses a driving narrative. When is life truly a driving narrative? We are taught to value the narrative, to see the pattern of the narrative among the random, but as we live our life the threads are so interwoven with other stories, there is no actual narrative. Narrative is the pattern we find as we sift all that is for what to attend to.

The movie's disjointed moments of low and high portray the common, eccentric, and sublime without guiding the viewer: i am reminded of the effect of some of Turner's paintings. They were so abstracted, yet intended a narrative (with titles such as "The Fighting Temeraire tugged to her last berth to be broken up, 1838 " and "Slavers Throwing overboard the Dead and Dying—Typhon coming on"). In this movie, too, we have abstracted moments from the last half of Turner's life intended to provide the narrative.

It's available streaming on Amazon.
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Tuesday, June 23rd, 2015 06:23 am
A pleasant visit with my brother last night, despite his late arrival. (I'm not proud that i'm keeping score: let it go.) There was a small circus around the inflatable mattress. In the wait for his arrival i inflated it.... and then found it deflated. Clearly i hadn't sealed the two ports. So, again i inflate, again it deflates. Knowing it is a definition of insanity, i inflated it again as my brother was ready for bed. Voila! The hole was right near where his head was, and we were able to seal it up.

N thought MacGyver would disapprove of my blue duck-brand duct tape, but i think it is perfectly acceptable.

He was off, apparently, only after some few hours of sleep to work jet-lagged in a 24 hour taqueria near the airport.

He advised me to get on the phone and fuss at United over their "inability" to assign me seats on my flight from Tampa to SFO via Newark. It was a thirty minute call just to find out that, indeed, they are "unable" to assign me seats due to the same flight number on both sides of the connection despite the change of planes. Presumably, if i do nothing, i will show up at the airport, and will be waiting for the folks who are trying to upgrade their seats to move to better ones. I'm trying to decide which will be more distressing. Minimally an hour hassling airline staff by phone when i could be doing something at home, or being pissed off at the airport when i would just be waiting around at the airport. I expect the airline to be required to get me to SFO somehow. ... and Hipmunk shows that there will still be flight choices from United from Tampa to SFO and from Newark to SFO. So, worst case they put me on a later flight. I'm still indignant that i have this complication.

I'm wondering if i get a first class upgrade out of this, wondering if being the pleasant but distressed passenger ends up being rewarded over the jerk. Or if it's the Yes-I-AM-entitled-I-paid-for-a-ticket behavior that wins.
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Friday, June 12th, 2015 07:28 am
I'm going to get to attend the American Librarian Association meeting in San Francisco at the end of the month. I'll go up with a friend and colleague on Friday and knock around, and then Saturday i have a schedule of meetings and events about privacy to attend.

I'm hoping it will be fun and not too overwhelming.

We finally have warm days. Monday was downright HOT, and it seemed unfair to be thrown into the furnace after so many mild days. Today is simply going to be pleasantly warm, but the power company is calling for a saving day where we should reduce our power. We did have a drizzly day on Wednesday: so delightful, so needed. Tonight i hope to sit on the deck and enjoy a balmy evening into the night.

We watched the documentary series The Century of the Self over the past few weeks. It shows how propaganda, public relations, and advertising developed over the century. Intentionally, Americans were encouraged to focus on their desires and fears over the century, and one can easily see so much of what is problematic - the waste, the over-consumption, the lack of concern for others and lack of civic-mindedness - as a result. We're also watching the Roosevelt documentary, and it does provide a sense of the difference, the before. Corporate greed was well entrenched, but the progressive spirit of both Teddy Roosevelt and FDR was well connected to the progressivism of the culture. I can't imagine what the Tea Party would brand Teddy Roosevelt. (I'll admit a certain ... squeamishness around his attitude toward the constitution.)

I'm left with questions of how well can i guard myself against the self satisfaction culture.

Elephants are coming and going. Some days feel like a stampede and then some days it seems they are gone. My record-keeping failed in the past weeks when it seemed my brain went on a long vacation to Liad as i read book after book, so it's hard for me to verify my perceptions.
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Thursday, June 4th, 2015 06:45 am
I've been lost in the Liaden Universe's Agent of Change series since Monday afternoon. I bought Mouse And Dragon and when that was done i tore through four of the five stories following. I believe i read these first when i spent a trance like week at a conference in Vancouver over the summer solstice weekend. The daylight and the books had me reading late into the twilit night. The books are threads of narratives woven together and i seem to have remembered some thread better than others. I think i may not have read Conflict of Honors so much of the subsequent narrative of those characters was ignored.

So, just reading and fuzzily going about work for the past 60 hours. (I'll note that Tuesday had an early all staff presentation and Wednesday an extremely early meeting which has also scrambled my schedule.)

So, trying to reenter after the clerking retreat.... and i'm hoping what i learned at the clerking retreat hasn't been too subsumed by the practices of Liaden melant'i.
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Friday, May 15th, 2015 06:28 am
Why is it when i read these folks want a common sense approach, i think it means "Not in my back yard and don't spend any of my tax dollars."

I've read the internet this morning, and Christine seems to be resting quite well. I'm looking at my ticklers for this mid month point and find a reminder to re-read this contrast of the harm of too much praise and the need for validation and encouragement.

With the OVER HALF INCH of rain yesterday, perhaps it is the clean air. I feel refreshed and ready to take on the day. Maybe it was actually walking before bed. I'm ready for a good Friday and good weekend.
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Tuesday, May 12th, 2015 07:03 am

I've been using the Moodscope tool for six months or so now. It seems a trivial tool and i feel like i'm answering the questions the same way... yet the score moves. I'd been in a mood decline over the past few days (where decline means going to the all time average score level: my scores before the job change seem to average below 50% while i now seem to average at just under 60%*). Today i've perked up. And i think that's because yesterday, not only did i do the filling the form exercise, but i also looked back at my serenitree plans for my 47th year. [Accidental post at this point in writing.] I reconnected with that visioning and dreaming exercise, and found it more clear as to what i am trying to do.

And, i did get my tiny "condition of enoughness" goals done. Beyond that, while i didn't get in a walk, i did get a load of laundry and i knitted while watching our evening diversion. Plus, Christine and i had a long lovely chat on the deck, a habit we've been developing that i adore. (Although there was a six month period where we would have some walks when i came home that were twice rewarding.)

It's nice to have a data measure that enforced my impression that i was swinging up yesterday evening. Looking back over the past few months and seeing i had been progressing in going though stuff and that there were household care issues that had actually been improved.

If Moodscope allowed a csv export of the raw scores, i could actually calculate the averages before and after certain dates. But no. If paying for it allowed data export, i'd be interested.
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Sunday, May 10th, 2015 08:55 am
Rough morning for us.

I woke to very bad dream about my parents. It wasn't too early to get up, so i tried calling Mom to wish her a happy Mother's Day. No answer. I have a slight sense of disturbance that lingers, that will be better once i hear their voices.

I then messed about in the kitchen, preparing a vegetarian dinner loaf. I tried using the grinder on the nuts: too small an amount to make it through the grinder. When the chickpeas were done, i pushed them through, pushing out the pecans: in general, too much fuss for the effort. I think i'll just use the potato masher in the future. The (very very old, back of cabinet) quinoa cooked up with much more volume than expected. I thought i was being clever by steaming the loaf: i was not.

It tastes pretty good, at least, but even after having been in the oven in a pie plate for 25 min, it has the texture of refried beans. I suppose it will get me through the week.

Christine is having her own bumps.

Yesterday I took a friend for an MRI: that ran over long, as it hadn't started by the time i came to pick her up. I then saw my friend DP, who has moved to Seattle as it is less expensive there. She is in town to visit her mother who has dementia. She's coping with depression since her move away, and coping with her mother's decline.

I'm clerking both worship & meeting for business today. I feel tired.