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My parents' nearly fifty years practice in miscommunication weighs on me. I was sad to see after we returned to North Carolina that my father's sense of mortality and resentment at all the time spent with my mother's parents had become his preoccupation. Anger at the years of traveling to see her parents (and the resulting attacks on him that would occur on the return ride home) surfaced off and on. He's also gained weight over the three weeks of the last watch, and he's angry about that.

I wanted to shake him, say, "Snap out of it, she's in grief," but i know it wouldn't help.

It is so sad to see a couple where both feel they have sacrificed for the other without reward. Cost for cost, i'm sure they can balance each others pain and irritation.

They're alone for the rest of the week or so: my sister will return with her family and give them both a little distraction from their obsessive thoughts.

I also want to shake both of them and tell them to get walkie talkie headsets so the can literally hear each other. There's still an issue with them listening to each other, but the gaps in hearing aren't helping. (Their cars are diesel VW Jettas, and there's lots and lots of road noise. And we drove for days plus with the ceiling vent open, adding maddening air noise on top of the engine and road.)

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I did make a great deal of crocheted motifs on this trip, flowers and leaves. I'm planning some sort of scarf/shawl. The leaves are from heavy handspun yarns: i'll need to work to make sure they are well balanced by the lacier flowers.

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Health: ( Basically good, but i need to whine )