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elainegrey) wrote2012-08-31 08:55 am
elainegrey) wrote2012-08-31 08:55 am
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Yet another cranky morning.
I woke to see that the German colleague i'd arranged myself and several other Californian staff to meet with at 7:30 am wasn't going to attend because some email hadn't been answered. (We were going to talk through his continued questions in person.) That had me going through work email at 6:30. I noted his Skype had an "Away" message of "Summer Party," which set my anger above simmer. I had a 7 am meeting with New Director: at 7:15 i txt'ed him with my phone number. Then he called. "Oh, i'm a little under the weather," was how he greeted me.
So, those meetings are wrapped up, skype is off, and i've skimmed a bit of internet to distract me. It's 9 am and overcast. I haven't had my even minimal reflective start of my day free of work irritation. It's time to do that.
So much is so much improved with my job: it's hard to communicate that. I'm getting the support i need through my Pretend Boss. New Director is doing better at showing up on time and making sure that he stays in touch: this morning stands in contrast to the rest of August's performance. The engineering and systems divisions are getting processes and procedures in place in response to the debacles of a year ago. I am seeing improvement in the larger work systems.
But i am still a crispy fried critter from the previous years.
One of the barriers to my recovery is the way days start with urgent triage. I read and hear advice to set aside the first 90 minutes of the day to focus on the Important and it's hard. I don't want to start work any earlier: i don't have enough time for the other Important in my life. What i think i can do is block Monday mornings for getting big tasks done: i will blow off email on Monday mornings. I'm going to also be more proactive in blocking other time periods to keep meetings from happening.
So, I will see continuous improvement in me taking care of my needs, too.
I woke to see that the German colleague i'd arranged myself and several other Californian staff to meet with at 7:30 am wasn't going to attend because some email hadn't been answered. (We were going to talk through his continued questions in person.) That had me going through work email at 6:30. I noted his Skype had an "Away" message of "Summer Party," which set my anger above simmer. I had a 7 am meeting with New Director: at 7:15 i txt'ed him with my phone number. Then he called. "Oh, i'm a little under the weather," was how he greeted me.
So, those meetings are wrapped up, skype is off, and i've skimmed a bit of internet to distract me. It's 9 am and overcast. I haven't had my even minimal reflective start of my day free of work irritation. It's time to do that.
So much is so much improved with my job: it's hard to communicate that. I'm getting the support i need through my Pretend Boss. New Director is doing better at showing up on time and making sure that he stays in touch: this morning stands in contrast to the rest of August's performance. The engineering and systems divisions are getting processes and procedures in place in response to the debacles of a year ago. I am seeing improvement in the larger work systems.
But i am still a crispy fried critter from the previous years.
One of the barriers to my recovery is the way days start with urgent triage. I read and hear advice to set aside the first 90 minutes of the day to focus on the Important and it's hard. I don't want to start work any earlier: i don't have enough time for the other Important in my life. What i think i can do is block Monday mornings for getting big tasks done: i will blow off email on Monday mornings. I'm going to also be more proactive in blocking other time periods to keep meetings from happening.
So, I will see continuous improvement in me taking care of my needs, too.