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elainegrey) wrote2011-05-02 06:29 pm
elainegrey) wrote2011-05-02 06:29 pm
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Yowsa.
I can see my workday is going to shift dramatically from now on. Not sure how i want to handle this. I'm now doing a daily "stand up" at 8:30. The previous stand-up was at 9:45. There are questions around commuting and such that will challenge me. (How important to be face to face with the one person with whom i can likely be face to face ?) Skype is our friend.
I plowed pretty deeply all day, too. There is something useful in the focus the commitments gave me, although i'll admit to blowing off one meeting and not attending to email. I can't read my energy: compared to last week, there was barely any demand on my interaction energy. On the other hand, i certainly had some intensity.
I feel a little burnt out this evening and i worry about not having energy to live the rest of my life. I suppose it's a matter of discipline, developing a baseline and building endurance.
I've no idea what happens if i get depressed.
--==∞==--
Yahoo quickly refunded this year's hosting and domain name charges and suggest that some criminal was trying to verify whether they had a "good" credit card number. I've just skimmed through the months of charges after that. A couple Amazon charges in May just over $100 ... and a quick cross check indicates one of those orders was for a La Cie firewire drive. The other may be Christine's order.
I'm find the whole thing terribly odd. But at least it was settled without a huge headache.
--==∞==--
Currently living with steroid ointments for a variety of different skin issues. Then there were yesterday's injuries. I sliced the tip of my left hand thumb on the brand new mandoline + salad spinner device producing a prodigious amount of blood. In an unrelated event i caught my "index" toe nail on something, and it's now a nice blue. My left little finger that i fell on Easter Sunday still aches a little, but it's easily ignored.
This is reminiscent of loosing things, in that it makes me wonder whether i'm doing it to myself.
(And by the way, i forget if i noted that right after replacing the lost mother's day yarn i found it. I've replaced the letter case but no return from the airline, yet.)
Christine's recovery is what i'm to be focusing on, and i know it's probably weighing on me more than i admit to myself. So, i suppose i'm "stressed" and additionally clumsy because of it.... ? Meh.
--==∞==--
That all said, i feel good -- just a little overextended with a conference starting tomorrow, new work patterns, a sense of enthousiasmos (gave ministry on Sunday, still thinking about scrum and Quaker process). Reading the entry from last March when trying to track down the strange website purchase made me aware just how dark a muddle i was in last year. I wonder at the Prozac: my six months is approaching its end.
I can see my workday is going to shift dramatically from now on. Not sure how i want to handle this. I'm now doing a daily "stand up" at 8:30. The previous stand-up was at 9:45. There are questions around commuting and such that will challenge me. (How important to be face to face with the one person with whom i can likely be face to face ?) Skype is our friend.
I plowed pretty deeply all day, too. There is something useful in the focus the commitments gave me, although i'll admit to blowing off one meeting and not attending to email. I can't read my energy: compared to last week, there was barely any demand on my interaction energy. On the other hand, i certainly had some intensity.
I feel a little burnt out this evening and i worry about not having energy to live the rest of my life. I suppose it's a matter of discipline, developing a baseline and building endurance.
I've no idea what happens if i get depressed.
--==∞==--
Yahoo quickly refunded this year's hosting and domain name charges and suggest that some criminal was trying to verify whether they had a "good" credit card number. I've just skimmed through the months of charges after that. A couple Amazon charges in May just over $100 ... and a quick cross check indicates one of those orders was for a La Cie firewire drive. The other may be Christine's order.
I'm find the whole thing terribly odd. But at least it was settled without a huge headache.
--==∞==--
Currently living with steroid ointments for a variety of different skin issues. Then there were yesterday's injuries. I sliced the tip of my left hand thumb on the brand new mandoline + salad spinner device producing a prodigious amount of blood. In an unrelated event i caught my "index" toe nail on something, and it's now a nice blue. My left little finger that i fell on Easter Sunday still aches a little, but it's easily ignored.
This is reminiscent of loosing things, in that it makes me wonder whether i'm doing it to myself.
(And by the way, i forget if i noted that right after replacing the lost mother's day yarn i found it. I've replaced the letter case but no return from the airline, yet.)
Christine's recovery is what i'm to be focusing on, and i know it's probably weighing on me more than i admit to myself. So, i suppose i'm "stressed" and additionally clumsy because of it.... ? Meh.
--==∞==--
That all said, i feel good -- just a little overextended with a conference starting tomorrow, new work patterns, a sense of enthousiasmos (gave ministry on Sunday, still thinking about scrum and Quaker process). Reading the entry from last March when trying to track down the strange website purchase made me aware just how dark a muddle i was in last year. I wonder at the Prozac: my six months is approaching its end.