Dear Monday in my Neck of the Universe-Woods,

Hi. I would like to crawl out of my little weekend hermit hole. Yes, it *was* interesting to read The Man Who Made Lists: Love Death, Madness, and the Creation of Roget's Thesaurus and realize my weekend of messing around with my lists was me trying to bring order to my world, some sort of control, as well as avoiding the guilt around procrastinating on Meeting stuff. Yup, thank you for putting that book in my hands at this time. It was nice to remember the pleasurable escape of sorting out my stamp collection when i was in grade school, and reflect on how similar the energy is in sorting out facts and hints in genealogy research.

But now, the stuff i procrastinated on over the weekend and the weeks before must come forward. I realized with some amusement that my agenda making is very similar to the list making. Is it enough to list someone's with a broken heart on the agenda and hold their pain up in our meeting? How to go on to healing?

Am i giving up on looking for a new gig? No, i am not. On the other hand, i think i want to try the Re-membering ritual first. The emotional chaos i've felt when considering job descriptions since the Evernote gig has not been helpful.

I have made a step towards a clear change at the office by contacting KQ, the ... i'll call her the Acting-Instead-of-the-VP. During the shake up she was given a role that removed all of her management responsibilities and was given the new mysterious role of Communications Manager. "The assignment of this new position is to facilitate effective communications, coordination and measurements of GES division projects and performance.
[KQ] will work closely with the development directors, release managers, architects, and development leads within the division, and with Global Product Management and Systems Management partners." No, it's not any of the executive work the VP is supposed to do, it's all the work-work. In a game of make believe with my therapist i said i'd love KQ to be my director instead of KS. So, fine. I will report to her as if she were my director.

I do observe that while i have been hermit like this weekend, i'm actually seeing people i haven't seen in ages: mopalia & brian1789. I did write the belated regrets to a couple who had invited us to a party.

Anyhow, Monday, i hope you've been fine for everyone else as you pass across the face of this blue-sky planet. I'm looking forward to a good partnership with you today.

Cheers,

me