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elainegrey) wrote2023-02-20 08:45 am
elainegrey) wrote2023-02-20 08:45 am
Entry tags:
- adhd,
- dad,
- depression,
- f&f,
- quaker notes
(f&f, quaker notes, depression, adhd, dad)
I pulled out of that work depression, focused on communicating "I am over committed: this is what i can do," which STILL over committed me, but maybe this week will be more focused.
This coming work week is intense.
The past four days have been an online gathering of queer American (mainly) Quakers. The connection has been good, although i remain clear that i am not called to return to a community at this time. The worship sharing today had a question about relationships and resources. It made me think about ADHD and friendships, and how i feel when i read content like https://www.verywellmind.com/how-to-make-friends-when-you-have-adhd-20402 On one hand i recognize myself, on the other hand -- not really helpful. Another person who has been friend-diagnosed as having ADHD, spoke and so much of what he said resonated with me. It wasn't a hopeful resonance but shared frustration.
I've spent other times reflecting on the questions that have circled around here: how to ask for help, how to ask for needs. I made a little progress thinking about what i want from Dad. I am imagining making him a 3x5 card on it with questions he can ask me.
I've gardened in the gaps. Potatoes are delivered today at the local farm store, i can pick mine up tomorrow (when i am back to work). I am trying to have a bed ready for them in the island circle, which is guarded against deer but not rabbits, and has some very rich, loamy soil because of wood chips through the ages. It also has lots of gravel, because of rerouting the driveway.
Earlier in the long weekend i planted the edible perennials i bought. It might not be shady enough for the ostrich fern: we'll see. Also, the very inexpensive plants ... well, the ostrich ferns seemed ... hardly plausible. Hopefully the two nicest root systems will make it. Maybe i will be surprised. The solomon's seal had nice sprouts, so those look likely to make it.
I've got a bunch of old pea seed and fava beans planted. I didn't take time to soak the seed. I found one last old packet of pea seed -- i can plant those if the planted ones don't sprout. I'm just as interested in what the peas might do for the soil as eating peas. I never
I have planted Green Mountain Potato Onions that were languishing in my cabinet. I apparently bought 3 in 2020. It's possible i harvested them in 2021, but i suspect it was 2022. They all seemed viable so i planted them all, a nice multiplication from the original 3. This year, i hope i will actually *use* many of them.
I have done a pretty good job rescuing (that is weeding) beds in the garden. Three beds remain needing significant attention, although all of them are beds where some self seeding may have happened. I just remembered the wireworms -- and that was part of the reason for moving the potatoes to the center of the drive, but i just put onions in the middle of wireworm central. Oy. I will have time to get the nematodes in once i get back from my work travel.
I hope to get some more seeds in to the beds i cleared today.
This coming work week is intense.
The past four days have been an online gathering of queer American (mainly) Quakers. The connection has been good, although i remain clear that i am not called to return to a community at this time. The worship sharing today had a question about relationships and resources. It made me think about ADHD and friendships, and how i feel when i read content like https://www.verywellmind.com/how-to-make-friends-when-you-have-adhd-20402 On one hand i recognize myself, on the other hand -- not really helpful. Another person who has been friend-diagnosed as having ADHD, spoke and so much of what he said resonated with me. It wasn't a hopeful resonance but shared frustration.
I've spent other times reflecting on the questions that have circled around here: how to ask for help, how to ask for needs. I made a little progress thinking about what i want from Dad. I am imagining making him a 3x5 card on it with questions he can ask me.
I've gardened in the gaps. Potatoes are delivered today at the local farm store, i can pick mine up tomorrow (when i am back to work). I am trying to have a bed ready for them in the island circle, which is guarded against deer but not rabbits, and has some very rich, loamy soil because of wood chips through the ages. It also has lots of gravel, because of rerouting the driveway.
Earlier in the long weekend i planted the edible perennials i bought. It might not be shady enough for the ostrich fern: we'll see. Also, the very inexpensive plants ... well, the ostrich ferns seemed ... hardly plausible. Hopefully the two nicest root systems will make it. Maybe i will be surprised. The solomon's seal had nice sprouts, so those look likely to make it.
I've got a bunch of old pea seed and fava beans planted. I didn't take time to soak the seed. I found one last old packet of pea seed -- i can plant those if the planted ones don't sprout. I'm just as interested in what the peas might do for the soil as eating peas. I never
I have planted Green Mountain Potato Onions that were languishing in my cabinet. I apparently bought 3 in 2020. It's possible i harvested them in 2021, but i suspect it was 2022. They all seemed viable so i planted them all, a nice multiplication from the original 3. This year, i hope i will actually *use* many of them.
I have done a pretty good job rescuing (that is weeding) beds in the garden. Three beds remain needing significant attention, although all of them are beds where some self seeding may have happened. I just remembered the wireworms -- and that was part of the reason for moving the potatoes to the center of the drive, but i just put onions in the middle of wireworm central. Oy. I will have time to get the nematodes in once i get back from my work travel.
I hope to get some more seeds in to the beds i cleared today.