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elainegrey) wrote2010-08-09 07:17 am
elainegrey) wrote2010-08-09 07:17 am
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Log of yesterday
I was actually able to get a couple of loads of laundry done just before Meeting: Christine was left to fold. I also finished winding up the huge balls of purple cotton yarn i'd dyed for a friend.
The swift doesn't function as smoothly as i'd like. The binder clips have served their purpose holding the hooks on: i think small pipe clamps might be able to serve the purpose, bent to fit around the yardstick's profile. I also need to manufacture better hooks: the coat hanger wire and duct tape design is still functional, but i need a larger capacity hook in some cases (like the purple yarn project). I think a very strong design would be shape that is a "squished S" so that there's a roughly inch wide and flat surface that hooks over the pipe clamp and then is tightened between the clamp and yardstick. The friction between the pipe clamp and yard stick would be one force, but the hook shape would translate the direction of the tension ... oh, blah, it's been too long since mechanics to know the jargon. I can see the vectors in my mind, though.
Meeting was good, although self-oriented. I realized that i've "burned" away all (many of) the distracting "shoulds" in my private life. I feel mostly independent of external demands and expectations. I now have room to listen. And then, when i got to my meditation about the gift of wisdom, i felt an overwhelming sense of NOW, a sense that i am now ready to receive that "wisdom." "Wisdom" is a loaded term, and i think my expectations are not of "wisdom of Solomon" type wisdom, but correct prioritization of the moments in my life "wisdom." The Quaker term would be a state of "clearness," "being clear." (I don't think Friends often use the term "clarity" despite the dictionary reporting that the current sense of the word clarity originated in the early 17th century and Friends were formed mid 17th century. Still too newfangled a term for early Friends?)
The overwhelming sense of Now, the sense of a potential way of being that is easier, brought on a huge emotional sense of relief (and the awareness of the held back stresses). I consciously chose to step away from the experience and turned to thinking about crochet and dyeing clothes, and used that as a place of replenishment, before returning to that experience of relief. I think i was able to pace my experience to keep from being completely overwhelmed: and that too is a wonderful sense of competence, of being able to choose not to be completely washed away in emotion.
And, the moments set aside to think creatively were also productive. I came up with a design for my purple altered sweater that is going to be fun and varied work that will look designed instead of like a random mess of purples (the previous plan was just use lots of different patterns and embellish the sweater to death).
I also felt inspired about another dye plan: take the brown and add the green to make a dark bottom dye. Make up blue and green in squeeze bottles. Use the tray dying techniques with vertical pleats for the cardigan and scrunches for a paired shirt. Pull the arms out of the cardigan pleats and put more topwise (not sure if ay brown will be on sleeves). Yarn and sleeves and top of pleats get blue and green, blue towards top and bottom, green in middle, think trees in front of a lake.
Errands at meeting and errands on the way home, then lunch watching "Cake Boss," latest guilty pleasure. I ripped out the effusive purple thread work and worked up a proof of principle piece to show my design concept was possible. Called Mom and Dad, groceries, mental prep for the work day including determining my strategy and tactics for dealing with the work surprise from Friday. No exercise but felt exhausted.
Health: i'm beginning the 14 day course of Omeprazole for the reflux i might have. Since the very clear physical symptoms in ... May? .. i think i'm beginning to be able to identify physical sensations that might be related to this type of reflux that doesn't cause discomfort (but could be triggering asthma and allergies). I'll take the course and then wait four months. I haven't tracked the sensations....
The swift doesn't function as smoothly as i'd like. The binder clips have served their purpose holding the hooks on: i think small pipe clamps might be able to serve the purpose, bent to fit around the yardstick's profile. I also need to manufacture better hooks: the coat hanger wire and duct tape design is still functional, but i need a larger capacity hook in some cases (like the purple yarn project). I think a very strong design would be shape that is a "squished S" so that there's a roughly inch wide and flat surface that hooks over the pipe clamp and then is tightened between the clamp and yardstick. The friction between the pipe clamp and yard stick would be one force, but the hook shape would translate the direction of the tension ... oh, blah, it's been too long since mechanics to know the jargon. I can see the vectors in my mind, though.
Meeting was good, although self-oriented. I realized that i've "burned" away all (many of) the distracting "shoulds" in my private life. I feel mostly independent of external demands and expectations. I now have room to listen. And then, when i got to my meditation about the gift of wisdom, i felt an overwhelming sense of NOW, a sense that i am now ready to receive that "wisdom." "Wisdom" is a loaded term, and i think my expectations are not of "wisdom of Solomon" type wisdom, but correct prioritization of the moments in my life "wisdom." The Quaker term would be a state of "clearness," "being clear." (I don't think Friends often use the term "clarity" despite the dictionary reporting that the current sense of the word clarity originated in the early 17th century and Friends were formed mid 17th century. Still too newfangled a term for early Friends?)
The overwhelming sense of Now, the sense of a potential way of being that is easier, brought on a huge emotional sense of relief (and the awareness of the held back stresses). I consciously chose to step away from the experience and turned to thinking about crochet and dyeing clothes, and used that as a place of replenishment, before returning to that experience of relief. I think i was able to pace my experience to keep from being completely overwhelmed: and that too is a wonderful sense of competence, of being able to choose not to be completely washed away in emotion.
And, the moments set aside to think creatively were also productive. I came up with a design for my purple altered sweater that is going to be fun and varied work that will look designed instead of like a random mess of purples (the previous plan was just use lots of different patterns and embellish the sweater to death).
I also felt inspired about another dye plan: take the brown and add the green to make a dark bottom dye. Make up blue and green in squeeze bottles. Use the tray dying techniques with vertical pleats for the cardigan and scrunches for a paired shirt. Pull the arms out of the cardigan pleats and put more topwise (not sure if ay brown will be on sleeves). Yarn and sleeves and top of pleats get blue and green, blue towards top and bottom, green in middle, think trees in front of a lake.
Errands at meeting and errands on the way home, then lunch watching "Cake Boss," latest guilty pleasure. I ripped out the effusive purple thread work and worked up a proof of principle piece to show my design concept was possible. Called Mom and Dad, groceries, mental prep for the work day including determining my strategy and tactics for dealing with the work surprise from Friday. No exercise but felt exhausted.
Health: i'm beginning the 14 day course of Omeprazole for the reflux i might have. Since the very clear physical symptoms in ... May? .. i think i'm beginning to be able to identify physical sensations that might be related to this type of reflux that doesn't cause discomfort (but could be triggering asthma and allergies). I'll take the course and then wait four months. I haven't tracked the sensations....
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