Confidence

There was a post to the ACM's news alerts last week about a game developed to help one improve decision making skills. This morning, after three calls from operations last night, two which came after i was asleep, and after uncomfortable night sweats, i wanted a distraction. It seemed a good time to play a game and take quizzes.

First, a warning. If misspellings and gramatical errors are a trigger for you, do not visit this website. EG: "Variaty of interactive games. There are some interesting ideas and games on estimation and probabilitis." Probabilitis sounds like a horrible disease to contract. On the other hand, what are you doing reading my journaling?

So the description was as follows: ( Read more... )

The prototype game is at http://quiz.worldofuncertainty.org/ . It's not quite up to the level of quizzes that allow you to post your results and share with your friends, although theoretically there is a leaderboard. It was engaging to play a quiz game where one can balance the point award based on how certain you are of your answer.

If you are completely uncertain, you will get 10 points for a right answer, 10 for a wrong; complete certainty is 20 points for right, 0 for wrong. The points don't stay fixed at a spread of 20, though. If you are 30% confident, you can earn 15 for a right answer or 9 (or 8) for a wrong.

So, when asked where the biggest library in the ancient world was, i was 100% confident in the answer. When asked what the main ingredient in Cullen skink was, i just took the 10 points for being wrong.

I've known i'm cautious in game play. I'm terrible to play at chess with my family, because i basically play a game of defense. At the end of the game i'm terrible at finishing, chasing the few of the opponents remaining pieces around the board. It's not so much that i want to win as that i don't want to loose.

Seeing my underconfidence measures is intriguing.

Now i need a game that can measure my expectations of myself, where i am overconfident that i will have an amount of energy and motivation, and fail to live up to them.

And again: i play that "game" not to loose, and often just don't set any expectations.

Interesting.

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Christine's fine, but she was in an accident today. Insurance company tag begins tomorrow morning. I may end up working at home tomorrow.

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Meeting was intense for me, with a sense that i needed to plant a seed of hope that there is a way for the both aspects of me that i value professionally to play a role in work (as was clear to N that i want both) despite the assertions on Friday that the two parts can both be done well. In some ways, i know i am not doing both well. But maybe ... so ... HOPE.

And then i remembered years ago, planting the seed of joy, and how there is no way to eradicate the joy, it is always with me, and will thrive when i shelter it and water it.

The certainty of the promise was so present with me during worship -- yet for all the wonder, physically i am tense and feeling drained as i have these realizations.

My mind wandered to craft work and thinking about using the butane torch on copper wire. (http://www.how-to-make-jewelry.com/balled-wire-headpins.html) After imagining/planning i realized how refreshed i was, how the tightness of the sense of gifted joy had disappated.

This seems to be a good way to regulate my energy.

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I estimated that i would have 3.3 spoons to spend between noon-5 today, 2 spoons just from the 5 hours. At the end, i'd only spent 1.8 spoons over the 2 hours (not that i had much left over).

Some reasons why i didn't have 3.3 spoons

- broke blender, burning out the motor until is smoked making a veatloaf
- veatloaf is "off" (beansprouts giving it a edge?)**
- one hour watching TV (queasy tummy due to blender fumes?)
- accident stress

** interestingly, once i realized the off flavor was due to the protein powder i was "getting rid of" by including in the veat loaf, i didn't feel so disappointed and was able to move on more cheerfully.