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At dawn, I feel like i'm using my computer through a straw. And then after a half hour of waiting long moments between switching screens and staring at performance monitors, pow, everything seems fast. I need to learn to open the thing up when i go to put the kettle on and allow the laptop to come to a boil, too.

So.

I am still doing well, despite the slow computer and intense week. The pile of to-dos sits with the same towering nature, the household mess remains horrifying to my-mother-in-my-head, but i'm feeling even.

I hardly think the light has changed that much.

I do think i've come to a sense of completed cycle, that the work crisis of mid 2009-2011 is "done," and that i have time to be "open" to life again. I can't believe that the changes wrought by the November install debacle postmortem have impressed me so, but apparently they have. I have the sense that i am no longer needed in the "OMG is no one thinking about that??!!" way i have been living. Note - I don't feel that my personal cachet in the organization has shifted in any particular way, just that the crisis is ending.

With the ebb -- or even the promise of an ebb -- in crisis, the timeline for change agains seems to set itself back out to 2016. While weathering the crisis at the Whale, Christine has been able to get some bedrock under her.

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And it's lunch time and i have no work meetings until ... 7:30 am Monday morning (a call i can take in the car.) Just blocked commuting time off so i can go to the office.