(evening writing)

[elainegrey]

I was home about 24 hours before my digestive system went on strike. Tuesday evening i felt terrible, i didn't sleep well, and today i slowly coax my digestive system back into work again. My mouth tasted strange all night, water tasted weird, and i thought my tongue looked strange in the morning. (Christine didn't think it was) I don't usually spin up in as much anxiety as i did last night. Spent the night in the darkest doom cloud about work. I got a telehealth appointment just so someone could say that i didn't need to go to the emergency room because i was bleeding out. Easily fell into the most negative thoughts. Christine had my sister come over for a little cheer. Dozed much of afternoon. Doing better now.

I had a huge work thing on my plate for last Friday. I will try to sleep well and accept the now: the time i have, the knowledge i have, the options i have and accept i am good enough to move us one step forward. I don't need to solve the future. Just one step.

Comments

[weofodthignen]

Sleep well! That sounds like an awful trough.

[elainegrey]

Thank you, i think i did have a good night sleep.

[lyr]

Oh dear. I hope that was some side effects settling out.

[elainegrey]

The anxiety is listed as a side effect, but i think the digestive system rebellion was simply rebellion against hospital life.

[tamena]

that sounds awful =(
I hope today is a better day for you

[elainegrey]

It was! Sorry about your Dad. I hope he pulls through, but i understand.

[annie_r]

Oh that sounds so awful; side-effects or not, the feelings (and physical manifestations) are so real. I can zoom for a quick distraction (I am not that cheery?)

[elainegrey]

I was in teams meetings it seemed like all day. Particularly Ex!Cit!Ing! in the afternoon with something urgent to distract me from the important thing. Maybe Zoom Saturday? I'd like to try and work on the important thing a little on Saturday and that would get me to my desk.