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March 17th, 2012

elainegrey: Inspired by Grypping/gripping beast styles from Nordic cultures (Default)
Saturday, March 17th, 2012 06:26 am
Another morning of molasses computer. muttering )

Yesterday evening was a wonderful soaking rain. Edward sat in the cat tower under the shelter of the deck, apparently enjoying his view of the weather.

We watched a Swedish Wallander episode, not the BBC's version, that Christine had purchased for my birthday. My, how intense they are! As a measure of mental sharpness, i had no trouble sorting out the interrelationships early on. Earlier, i had felt dim and faded, but i suppose dinner (a huge salad) and the overdose of oreos (sugar rush!) may have helped.

In the past week i have had the opportunity to read aloud two memorial minutes. Each time i have switched digits in reading years to discover i had only by the chorus of listeners correcting me. It's not an unfamiliar experience. Last night i skimmed over some of the adult symptoms of dyslexia: many are familiar. It's not the first time i've pondered whether i fit the criteria for dyslexia, but I'm not sure what the point would be now. Some of the ways i switch terms and stumble with articulation might be "excused" as dyslexia. Currently i think i "use" that clumsiness with a self deprecating humor: i'm aware how other aspects of my assertive and strong personality could be... uncomfortable. And with a firm diagnosis, what then? I've learned coping skills ("Don't tell me to turn left or right, but your way and my way.") and i no longer work in fields where i think it was affecting my performance (far less need for accurate number recording, etc).

It can certainly explain the scrim that falls across my mind when trying to learn an unfamiliar name: the sounds slip by in a rush, i can't hold them long enough to observe and learn. But i cope well (Thank you, spelling checkers!). Because i taught myself to read -- my mother insists i learned to read because she wouldn't read some of the more "soap opera" comic strips to me --it's hard to know whether i would have had a difficulty with being taught. Do i read like other people do? How could one know?

I'd be interested in participating with research: i'm not quite sure how to go about that. Put a search agent on craigslist looking for the term dyslexia?
elainegrey: Inspired by Grypping/gripping beast styles from Nordic cultures (Default)
Saturday, March 17th, 2012 09:14 am
Inclusiveness, is it so hard?

Yes, it is. I know it is. Still.

I am feeling crinkly around the edges when thinking of the Meeting retreats that are now announced as having vegetarian options, but if you have any other food issues, bring your own.

I experience that as a big, "Fuck you and your needs if you are different beyond being a vegetarian."

I am sympathetic with the need to set boundaries and express limits. I sense the statement is really a statement of personal limits: more, "The organizer is able to ensure there are vegetarian options but does not have the spoons to deal with any more than that," less, "You needy folks with food issues should just get a grip."

How do i express *my* limits? And am i inadvertently telling folks that i don't think it's worth my effort to include them?