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I had my second session with the career coach yesterday, finally. The brainstorming processes is really quite fascinating, because you trick yourself into coming up from behind your deep motivations and fears to get them to reveal themselves.

I felt skittish at the end as we discussed what the homework is: at the end of the process is sorting out what most excites one and what most worries one about these brainstormed career possibilities.

I feel threatened as i look at the "what most excites you."

As long as i don't have an answer to that, i can continue in my rut, with the response, "But i don't know what else i would do."

Instead, i'll know that I'd rather be recreating Steinbeck's & Rickett's trip to the Sea of Cortez, traveling over rural routes to document the old homesteads and graveyards of folks' ancestors, making handmade nightgowns for night-sweats sufferers, taking photographs of the landscape....