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Today looks like a rocket ride after the stillness of the week of quiet. Work starts early with EST meetings; we're sprint planning, so it's intense face to face time all day; and i will probably go to library committee tonight while Christine goes to city council.
I've two major "yams" i did not get to resolving over the break. I feel like a looser, a flake for not getting those things done. I feel like i will loose the respect of my team and my colleagues. I've been carrying that along with the cold and the worry about family and the sense of so many things being "out of control." The procrastinatory effect of those work-yams, however, means that many bits of my personal life are back at manageable levels, as i did other stuff the past few days. I have Meeting "yams" hanging over me: responsibilities there mostly went by the wayside during The Cold.
Obviously carrying failure around all day is not going to work. ... and writing a letter to myself isn't going to reframe things .... I will focus on my breath as i get ready for the first meeting, and think about the values i have and being compassionate with myself.
Speaking of The Cold, it is still with me to some extent. I still have a productive cough and drainage, and over the past few days i've had back pain and sharp muscle aches around my chest. I rather think i pulled something while coughing. The good news is that the coughing and discharge is all much less than during the peak of The Cold -- Perhaps i should call this Child of Cold? -- i suppose i should write the doctor who saw me to outline the continued symptoms and just note that i assume that with my less than optimal respiratory system, the lingering symptoms are to be expected.
I've two major "yams" i did not get to resolving over the break. I feel like a looser, a flake for not getting those things done. I feel like i will loose the respect of my team and my colleagues. I've been carrying that along with the cold and the worry about family and the sense of so many things being "out of control." The procrastinatory effect of those work-yams, however, means that many bits of my personal life are back at manageable levels, as i did other stuff the past few days. I have Meeting "yams" hanging over me: responsibilities there mostly went by the wayside during The Cold.
Obviously carrying failure around all day is not going to work. ... and writing a letter to myself isn't going to reframe things .... I will focus on my breath as i get ready for the first meeting, and think about the values i have and being compassionate with myself.
Speaking of The Cold, it is still with me to some extent. I still have a productive cough and drainage, and over the past few days i've had back pain and sharp muscle aches around my chest. I rather think i pulled something while coughing. The good news is that the coughing and discharge is all much less than during the peak of The Cold -- Perhaps i should call this Child of Cold? -- i suppose i should write the doctor who saw me to outline the continued symptoms and just note that i assume that with my less than optimal respiratory system, the lingering symptoms are to be expected.
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