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Thanks to an LJ friend's Hawaiian vacation photo, i am reminded of my thoughts of visiting Hawaii. 1) i want to see all the islands! 2) travel between islands seems annoyingly expensive 3) GRUMBLE. Expensive grumble grumble. Then, a new thought: maybe this is why one goes on tours. Maybe this would be just right for a cruise! Voila, http://www2.ncl.com/cruise-destination/hawaii/ports/map, Norwegian cruises visits four islands over a week, with lots of time on the islands.
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Christine is just waking and made some pun about teas and tease and -- how can she be so clever before she's really awake!
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OK: Therapist. I think he's what i'm looking for although there are many ways he is DIFFERENT from previous therapists. As i am explicitly looking for cognitive therapy, he seems perfectly appropriate and competent. (But my brain keeps going eek! eek!) I'm not sure he's the best active listener, and he's awfully chatty. I think i know more about him in one visit than i know about most of my other therapists. He may be new to private practice.
I don't think i could have used him before now. I note that i can always see my more holistic therapist to help integrate the experience if i find the imbalance too distressing. However, despite the reaction of "Different!!" I'll note
* is the difference just because he's a guy?
* just because he seems delighted with his iPhone & iPad & MacBook may have just been an attempt at mutual bonding over a shared interest (i suppose there were openings to discuss progressive politics and other things as well)
* OK, so just because he was willing to open discussion and relationship building around Not My Therapy doesn't mean he's incompetent. This may, in fact, be part of the regulation behavior i've been learning in my other therapy: one need not grab hold of an issue like a bulldog and shake it to death over an hour.
One of my most negative reactions was when he advised me to nap. It wasn't a particularly articulate reaction, just a great big sense of. "no, no, no i don't wanna hear nah nah nah you can't make me listen." Hi inner six year old, you do realize that the "15 min break/nap" instruction has been on your to-do list for months and you have actually followed through at times, yes?
So, my biggest negative reaction is when he tells me to do something i know i should do. Hmmm.
And my homework is to look for jobs i would like to do. Not evaluate them particularly for when i would switch or anything, but open myself to possibilities. And my immediate reaction was, "That won't work."
And then i had to remind myself i am there just because the "That won't work" reaction IS NOT WORKING.
My sense is that there's a part of me highly invested in my status quo. That part was the one presenting the problems to the therapist.
Hmmm.
Question for next week: is persistence a possible cognitive issue?
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Christine is just waking and made some pun about teas and tease and -- how can she be so clever before she's really awake!
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OK: Therapist. I think he's what i'm looking for although there are many ways he is DIFFERENT from previous therapists. As i am explicitly looking for cognitive therapy, he seems perfectly appropriate and competent. (But my brain keeps going eek! eek!) I'm not sure he's the best active listener, and he's awfully chatty. I think i know more about him in one visit than i know about most of my other therapists. He may be new to private practice.
I don't think i could have used him before now. I note that i can always see my more holistic therapist to help integrate the experience if i find the imbalance too distressing. However, despite the reaction of "Different!!" I'll note
* is the difference just because he's a guy?
* just because he seems delighted with his iPhone & iPad & MacBook may have just been an attempt at mutual bonding over a shared interest (i suppose there were openings to discuss progressive politics and other things as well)
* OK, so just because he was willing to open discussion and relationship building around Not My Therapy doesn't mean he's incompetent. This may, in fact, be part of the regulation behavior i've been learning in my other therapy: one need not grab hold of an issue like a bulldog and shake it to death over an hour.
One of my most negative reactions was when he advised me to nap. It wasn't a particularly articulate reaction, just a great big sense of. "no, no, no i don't wanna hear nah nah nah you can't make me listen." Hi inner six year old, you do realize that the "15 min break/nap" instruction has been on your to-do list for months and you have actually followed through at times, yes?
So, my biggest negative reaction is when he tells me to do something i know i should do. Hmmm.
And my homework is to look for jobs i would like to do. Not evaluate them particularly for when i would switch or anything, but open myself to possibilities. And my immediate reaction was, "That won't work."
And then i had to remind myself i am there just because the "That won't work" reaction IS NOT WORKING.
My sense is that there's a part of me highly invested in my status quo. That part was the one presenting the problems to the therapist.
Hmmm.
Question for next week: is persistence a possible cognitive issue?
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My other reactions are very useful irritants, indded. The napping, i can't believe how resistant i was (and meh, this week, no opportunity to nap).