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4:30 am and i'm UP! Phone call at 5 am, to be followed by another phone conference at 6 am, and then one at 8 am. Defintiely working the east coast time zone today.
I got to bed quite early last night helped along with warm milk and a shot of Godiva chocolate liqueur, my usual rituals (sounds of the ocean playing, a couple hands of solitaire on the phone), and Christine reading in the bed next to me.
So, woo, i've had plenty of sleep, why doesn't everyone just randomly start work at 5 am?
Sarcasm aside, i don't think i resent this, after doing operations and getting paged awake at all hours. But getting up so i'm ready for 5 am start is a teensy bit early. End whine.
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I've had a small epiphany as i rapidly skim through my friends list and lack time to engage. There's something about the tidal surges of my work life that make the engagement with others, socially and with care, hard for me. I know it's why i like asynchronous connections -- letter writing ages ago, to email, to journalling here. The journalling though has a touch of semi-syncronous to it: should i reply to this week old comment? Should i read back out of the stream? The stream -- the friends page and email queue and so on fill up while i'm fully engaged with work and other commitments. So, yesterday, i started work in the morning and then ran off to a committee meeting and then was home to sleep and the back to work (and i'm stealing a moment here to help center myself). I might take time *for myself* and to catch up on other responsibilities, but before i engage socially i need to clear a space.
***
Well, we're going to have to leave that there.*
[because hours have passed and i'm a completely different person now]
* I'm hoping for a huge uptick in sarcastic use of that phrase to shame CNN out of using it, after recent Daily Show episode. However, i know better to hope that CNN will move to fact checking and challenging the absurdities.
I got to bed quite early last night helped along with warm milk and a shot of Godiva chocolate liqueur, my usual rituals (sounds of the ocean playing, a couple hands of solitaire on the phone), and Christine reading in the bed next to me.
So, woo, i've had plenty of sleep, why doesn't everyone just randomly start work at 5 am?
Sarcasm aside, i don't think i resent this, after doing operations and getting paged awake at all hours. But getting up so i'm ready for 5 am start is a teensy bit early. End whine.
***
I've had a small epiphany as i rapidly skim through my friends list and lack time to engage. There's something about the tidal surges of my work life that make the engagement with others, socially and with care, hard for me. I know it's why i like asynchronous connections -- letter writing ages ago, to email, to journalling here. The journalling though has a touch of semi-syncronous to it: should i reply to this week old comment? Should i read back out of the stream? The stream -- the friends page and email queue and so on fill up while i'm fully engaged with work and other commitments. So, yesterday, i started work in the morning and then ran off to a committee meeting and then was home to sleep and the back to work (and i'm stealing a moment here to help center myself). I might take time *for myself* and to catch up on other responsibilities, but before i engage socially i need to clear a space.
***
Well, we're going to have to leave that there.*
[because hours have passed and i'm a completely different person now]
* I'm hoping for a huge uptick in sarcastic use of that phrase to shame CNN out of using it, after recent Daily Show episode. However, i know better to hope that CNN will move to fact checking and challenging the absurdities.
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Incidentally, your comment to my rather fraught post of a couple weeks ago now (OMG) was interesting. Just as an example. It's so hard to reply to stuff in the moment sometimes, but then if you let time pass, the freshness of the conversation falters and then replying is darn near impossible.
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It's a complicated dance. We're not much good to anyone if we're constantly depleting ourselves. And by deciding that LJ and DW are primarily recreation for me and so they have to be a low priority and be usually read 2 weeks late, just before the entries vanish off the end of my friends'/reading page, I realize I'm insulting some people. But then some people were creeped out when I used to comment on several posts an hour; it seems to have given the impression of hovering, and some people have a problem with anyone other than the small group they had in mind responding to a post. Can't win em all. In general I figure better late than never. Though I do regret the urgent posts I miss . . . the problem is that LJ has ceased to be a community for many people I know, so they either don't read it and let me know there's something I should look at, or they assume we are all equally turned off unless they see us elsewhere too. And DW isn't popular enough yet to reverse that trend. It boils down to not being able to please everyone, though. And I do think that making comments is better than being afraid they will be perceived badly . . . then the comments themselves stand as a model of how we wish the internet community were, caring and not dismissive/insulting.
Sorry, struck a nerve :-)
M
PS: 5 am conference calls totally suck. So do my housemate's 9 pm conference calls. I realize global exigencies exist, blah blah, but ick.