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Upon waking, i remember dreaming about books, personal libraries (the Prel-- collection?), a college/dentist related meeting space (and more books & other media), some connection between the books and media and municipal workers, and a surreal DMV (undoubtably due to a concern for someone else, but i was the one trying to figure out what i needed to do).
I was half listening to the trauma exercises as i was headed to sleep last night -- the voice is rather lulling -- and i was struck by a comment he made about being curious and how that's incompatible with the fear/trauma reaction. That might be why the genealogy is such a great escape for me: it's a space where i can be deeply and persistently curious but i have no expectations around a particular goal. There's nothing in it for me that triggers judgement of my past work -- unlike how i've been thinking of a crocheted gift to my father as very poorly crafted, which triggers a cascade of reflections on other poorly crafted gifts, or how work can bring up, as it did last night, a sense of failure as i realize that i didn't "follow through" on getting details to folks for this that and the other.
I can't loose myself in creating, but following my curiosity with research (but not experimental work) is both an escape and a delight. I am so happy the 'net makes such a deep amount of research possible so easily. It isn't to say that i don't enjoy creating and experimenting, but it's not as much a *recovery*.
0. time ------------------------
* Potential things to do:
** [2→1] Visit the Prel--- library (to get rid of books, sooner?)
** [1→3] Find a time to have brunch with St-- Mig-- (March?)
** [2→X] Time from work to attend Berkeley Statute of Anne April 9-10 ?
** [3→2] time aside for taxes and possible "war tax" protest
** [3→X] meeting retreat
** [3→?] wherecamp
Current conference line up:
* evening Wednesday 7 April (Santa Clara): “What the Surprising Failure of Data Anonymization Means for Law and Policy.”
* May 17-19, 2010: IIW10 (Mountain View): internet identity workshop
* June 21-25 (Raleigh, North Carolina): inCommon's CAMP & Advanced CAMP.
I need vacation time for June, so i'm definitely saving my personal days (i'll have 2 in June)
Season begins with 11.67 d, and i'll earn 3.3. If i take the contingency time plus the whim, i'll have used up what i earned for the period.
* Potential 1 d2.5d = Prel-- library may need a wed afternoon off.
* Whim 11-12 Mar: 1.375 days
w4/9: decided Prel--: in late April, not going to connect with JH. ... *NOT* going to the meeting retreat because of creek clean up and meeting up with some friends.
w5/9: need a bit of time for this afternoon. (2h)
w6/9: Legal talk was good, and positive energy. Should contact Prel's re a specific Wed.
1. SELF ------------------------
* incorporate more movement into my life
* finish strategy
* sketch out goals for coming seasons?
* need some sort of to-do experiment practice (just the calendar thingie & yams?)
w3/9 plan to do ten "squats" before bed... Try getting in a mile walk/20 min daily.... Just mapped a mile walk at work.
w4/9: squats are working out (while brushing teeth) but not so much the movement. The other three goals now seem more possible. I'll look at strategy & goals this week.
w5/9: less movement this past week (fewer squats, but a walk). Haven't looked at goals: have been focussing on the to-do practice around home. Work to do practice is going OK with mind map.
w6/9: W-F wiped me out with interaction intensity; S-O was dulled recovery and rain; did walk yesterday. PLAN: squats, walks, continue thinking about to-do practice. Note that boxing CDs was a good recovery thing.
2. F&F ------------------------
* call Grandmama once a month at least
* post things to Granddad once a month
* March: thank yous & spring/easter (Apr 4) notes
w2/9: goal for this week: thank you notes
w3/9: continue to target ty notes. Also, have been thinking about corresponding with nephews.
w5/9: easter notes to parents & grandparents.
w6/9: Call *from* BB. Photo postage from SG. Need nephew (and niece) notes - ES's bday was NOT on schedule! TYs. Call Grandmama?
3. COM ------------------------
* -.Lib continue to focus on completing the review of donations,
cataloging new books, establishing process
* -.over continue coordinate committees. Next fall shift to something else?
* [creek] news gathering every month
w1/9:Continued work on creek news and oversight. A little on library.
w2/9: Lots of energy in these three priorities. Dewey research for library.
w3/9: Need to reinvigorate oversight work, have been on hiatus since meeting on Thursday.
w5/9: Yay, going OK (lingering to-do's but whatever)
w6/9: CC has been heavy, but feeling OK with this especially if i can shift arranging CC
4. WORK ------------------------
* write one story about my work history each month,
good or bad, unresolved, proud moment. 12 months, twelve years.
* [as time? 03, 07, 08?] books picked out by the reading group in the home office
** March http://brevity.org/misc/bestswi.html
** April (on hold at MVPL) Lifehacker: 88 Tech Tricks to Turbocharge Your Day
* performance appraisals
** Feb H-C
** Apr B-B
** Apr S-E
w4/9: late on H-C now but finished B-B (need to do B-B & S-E this month) Write March story.
w5/9: same as 4/9
w6/9: need to review training notes - -there was something in there that tickeled my mind about work stories. Otherwise, same as 4/9
5. CRT ------------------------
* crochet
** mom's apron for mother's day
** Christine's gloves
* painting the 4x4 meditation painting?
* April is National Poetry month: He1icopter Stories?
w/3/9: ... a white flower during torture talk
w 4/9: finished gloves YAY.
w 5/9: Continuing to fiddle with white flowers. Have been thinking about poetry. Gessoed the 4x4
w 6/9: White flowers. Also planning for summer dye work.
6. HOME ------------------------
* Meeting donation once a month
* Plan when to give to Save the Bay, Sierra Club, other orgs with Christine
* box all CDs in CD boxes from moving (organized as can be done)
** my job is to alphabetize
* craig's list the shelves
* DECK
** clean -- how? how much?
** new plants?
* Spring decor
* Beltane decor
w3/9: ... i [don't] need new plants except for herbs. Not going to try vegetables this year.
w4/9: spring decor/ceiling finished. Made rough draft of philant for year with Christine. TODO: Back to CDs in hall. Stick meeting donation in box.
w5/9: put donation for March in the box. And do April's too. *headdesk* Box CDs
w6/9: Donations to Meeting done; classical & jazz boxed. ToDo: Donation to org this week per plan. Continue w CDs
I was half listening to the trauma exercises as i was headed to sleep last night -- the voice is rather lulling -- and i was struck by a comment he made about being curious and how that's incompatible with the fear/trauma reaction. That might be why the genealogy is such a great escape for me: it's a space where i can be deeply and persistently curious but i have no expectations around a particular goal. There's nothing in it for me that triggers judgement of my past work -- unlike how i've been thinking of a crocheted gift to my father as very poorly crafted, which triggers a cascade of reflections on other poorly crafted gifts, or how work can bring up, as it did last night, a sense of failure as i realize that i didn't "follow through" on getting details to folks for this that and the other.
I can't loose myself in creating, but following my curiosity with research (but not experimental work) is both an escape and a delight. I am so happy the 'net makes such a deep amount of research possible so easily. It isn't to say that i don't enjoy creating and experimenting, but it's not as much a *recovery*.
0. time ------------------------
* Potential things to do:
** [2→1] Visit the Prel--- library (to get rid of books, sooner?)
** [1→3] Find a time to have brunch with St-- Mig-- (March?)
** [2→X] Time from work to attend Berkeley Statute of Anne April 9-10 ?
** [3→2] time aside for taxes and possible "war tax" protest
** [3→X] meeting retreat
** [3→?] wherecamp
Current conference line up:
* evening Wednesday 7 April (Santa Clara): “What the Surprising Failure of Data Anonymization Means for Law and Policy.”
* May 17-19, 2010: IIW10 (Mountain View): internet identity workshop
* June 21-25 (Raleigh, North Carolina): inCommon's CAMP & Advanced CAMP.
I need vacation time for June, so i'm definitely saving my personal days (i'll have 2 in June)
Season begins with 11.67 d, and i'll earn 3.3. If i take the contingency time plus the whim, i'll have used up what i earned for the period.
* Potential 1 d
* Whim 11-12 Mar: 1.375 days
w4/9: decided Prel--: in late April, not going to connect with JH. ... *NOT* going to the meeting retreat because of creek clean up and meeting up with some friends.
w5/9: need a bit of time for this afternoon. (2h)
w6/9: Legal talk was good, and positive energy. Should contact Prel's re a specific Wed.
1. SELF ------------------------
* incorporate more movement into my life
* finish strategy
* sketch out goals for coming seasons?
* need some sort of to-do experiment practice (just the calendar thingie & yams?)
w3/9 plan to do ten "squats" before bed... Try getting in a mile walk/20 min daily.... Just mapped a mile walk at work.
w4/9: squats are working out (while brushing teeth) but not so much the movement. The other three goals now seem more possible. I'll look at strategy & goals this week.
w5/9: less movement this past week (fewer squats, but a walk). Haven't looked at goals: have been focussing on the to-do practice around home. Work to do practice is going OK with mind map.
w6/9: W-F wiped me out with interaction intensity; S-O was dulled recovery and rain; did walk yesterday. PLAN: squats, walks, continue thinking about to-do practice. Note that boxing CDs was a good recovery thing.
2. F&F ------------------------
* call Grandmama once a month at least
* post things to Granddad once a month
* March: thank yous & spring/easter (Apr 4) notes
w2/9: goal for this week: thank you notes
w3/9: continue to target ty notes. Also, have been thinking about corresponding with nephews.
w5/9: easter notes to parents & grandparents.
w6/9: Call *from* BB. Photo postage from SG. Need nephew (and niece) notes - ES's bday was NOT on schedule! TYs. Call Grandmama?
3. COM ------------------------
* -.Lib continue to focus on completing the review of donations,
cataloging new books, establishing process
* -.over continue coordinate committees. Next fall shift to something else?
* [creek] news gathering every month
w1/9:Continued work on creek news and oversight. A little on library.
w2/9: Lots of energy in these three priorities. Dewey research for library.
w3/9: Need to reinvigorate oversight work, have been on hiatus since meeting on Thursday.
w5/9: Yay, going OK (lingering to-do's but whatever)
w6/9: CC has been heavy, but feeling OK with this especially if i can shift arranging CC
4. WORK ------------------------
* write one story about my work history each month,
good or bad, unresolved, proud moment. 12 months, twelve years.
* [as time? 03, 07, 08?] books picked out by the reading group in the home office
** March http://brevity.org/misc/bestswi.html
** April (on hold at MVPL) Lifehacker: 88 Tech Tricks to Turbocharge Your Day
* performance appraisals
** Feb H-C
** Apr B-B
** Apr S-E
w4/9: late on H-C now but finished B-B (need to do B-B & S-E this month) Write March story.
w5/9: same as 4/9
w6/9: need to review training notes - -there was something in there that tickeled my mind about work stories. Otherwise, same as 4/9
5. CRT ------------------------
* crochet
** mom's apron for mother's day
** Christine's gloves
* painting the 4x4 meditation painting?
* April is National Poetry month: He1icopter Stories?
w/3/9: ... a white flower during torture talk
w 4/9: finished gloves YAY.
w 5/9: Continuing to fiddle with white flowers. Have been thinking about poetry. Gessoed the 4x4
w 6/9: White flowers. Also planning for summer dye work.
6. HOME ------------------------
* Meeting donation once a month
* Plan when to give to Save the Bay, Sierra Club, other orgs with Christine
* box all CDs in CD boxes from moving (organized as can be done)
** my job is to alphabetize
* craig's list the shelves
* DECK
** clean -- how? how much?
** new plants?
* Spring decor
* Beltane decor
w3/9: ... i [don't] need new plants except for herbs. Not going to try vegetables this year.
w4/9: spring decor/ceiling finished. Made rough draft of philant for year with Christine. TODO: Back to CDs in hall. Stick meeting donation in box.
w5/9: put donation for March in the box. And do April's too. *headdesk* Box CDs
w6/9: Donations to Meeting done; classical & jazz boxed. ToDo: Donation to org this week per plan. Continue w CDs
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