Care Check-In

Care Check-In
Have i been using those tools that i know make my life better? (Or that i'm experimenting with?)

Not exactly, as i've not been doing the little bits of question and response check in since ( for this) April 3. I haven't exactly set goals for the summer. Reading others' posts about their goals and progress is a little discomforting. I'm not sure why i haven't set my rough outline of goals in place, except to romanticize or rationalize it as a willingness to let go and let That Which Is transform me. Flow. And i quickly have layers of thought of, "Yes! You've spent so much time training and directing yourself, now let training react to the chaos of or reality and shift and adjust at the moment, trust the momentum that you've built up to stay on the right path!" and "You should be strictly following some system to Get Things Done -- my god, woman, right this moment do you realize how much you are failing to meet commitments and expectations!?!!"

Typing that voice out really lets me see it as the anxious, fearful, fail-ful voice it is.
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