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Meh. Not the best sleep -- can't blame the heat this time, but my mouth discomfort seems to be returning along with work stress. Also, my ring finger is beginning to have very small "tapioca" blisters which seem to be spreading despite some use of the big stick steroid.
Yesterday evening went moderately well: i did one Oversight committee task that had needed doing for some months. I think i did it well: a gentle nudge to a anchor committee about what their responsibility is that provoked a few thoughtful and meaningful responses. I asked the new clerk of the library committee what ONE thing would he like me to do, so that i could avoid overwhelm by focussing on just one thing. During the day i had an exchange with someone settling on a day to meet and discuss job stuff.
The workday was mostly OK, as well. Highlights, things i feel i did well, include a performance review and a few meetings to focus on Product's priorities for the month. I'm more clear about one of my work triggers: the large division we've been moved into intimidates me and the director worries me. My boss sounds very frustrated about the inconsistent and chaotic processes: i think he still misses reporting to the VP when we joined the Whale, the VP that was deposed for the VacuumPump.
The evening and this morning have been rather frustrating though as i see the continued lack of leadership leading to conflicts in the engineering division. I think i can see the conflicts clearly today thanks to a email thread: the people we need to deliver for and who are our highest priority are on one team doing things This Way, our new reporting structure is another team doing things That Way. That Way requires a whole lot more coordination and agreement than This Way, so i look longingly at That Way, but have a hard time seeing how i continue to wear all my hats and get things done.
And then the salary adjustments -- the new director calculated a proration factor differently than i, so i had to verify i was right, and then explain it to the new director. Thank heavens the HR person said i was right, because i did not understand at all the new director's muddled calculation of something very simple. (I, however, am error prone, so it's always possible i miscounted the number of months.)
I hate that i feel so *elevated* in anxiety right now, but i'm glad i have an evening appointment with my therapist. I dread interactions with the boss' boss because my boss is living in a similar state as i, adjusting to new expectations yet not having the environment to meet those.
Maybe i should go look at my boss' boss' personality analysis again.
I'm bailing on a company sponsored health thing. SIMPLICITY. I don't need it, but the $50 was tempting. But i don't need it. My doctor does plenty for me. I just need to have a few appointments and tests for her.
Yesterday evening went moderately well: i did one Oversight committee task that had needed doing for some months. I think i did it well: a gentle nudge to a anchor committee about what their responsibility is that provoked a few thoughtful and meaningful responses. I asked the new clerk of the library committee what ONE thing would he like me to do, so that i could avoid overwhelm by focussing on just one thing. During the day i had an exchange with someone settling on a day to meet and discuss job stuff.
The workday was mostly OK, as well. Highlights, things i feel i did well, include a performance review and a few meetings to focus on Product's priorities for the month. I'm more clear about one of my work triggers: the large division we've been moved into intimidates me and the director worries me. My boss sounds very frustrated about the inconsistent and chaotic processes: i think he still misses reporting to the VP when we joined the Whale, the VP that was deposed for the VacuumPump.
The evening and this morning have been rather frustrating though as i see the continued lack of leadership leading to conflicts in the engineering division. I think i can see the conflicts clearly today thanks to a email thread: the people we need to deliver for and who are our highest priority are on one team doing things This Way, our new reporting structure is another team doing things That Way. That Way requires a whole lot more coordination and agreement than This Way, so i look longingly at That Way, but have a hard time seeing how i continue to wear all my hats and get things done.
And then the salary adjustments -- the new director calculated a proration factor differently than i, so i had to verify i was right, and then explain it to the new director. Thank heavens the HR person said i was right, because i did not understand at all the new director's muddled calculation of something very simple. (I, however, am error prone, so it's always possible i miscounted the number of months.)
I hate that i feel so *elevated* in anxiety right now, but i'm glad i have an evening appointment with my therapist. I dread interactions with the boss' boss because my boss is living in a similar state as i, adjusting to new expectations yet not having the environment to meet those.
Maybe i should go look at my boss' boss' personality analysis again.
I'm bailing on a company sponsored health thing. SIMPLICITY. I don't need it, but the $50 was tempting. But i don't need it. My doctor does plenty for me. I just need to have a few appointments and tests for her.
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