Cringy Plor Elements

Hello world!

Last evening i listened to much of Curse of the Blue Tattoo: Being an Account of the Misadventures of Jacky Faber, Midshipman and Fine Lady and managed to get past all the cringing.

Some years ago Christine wanted me to watch a movie short and and the more she described it the more i did not want to see it. It took a while for me to figure out how to articulate the aspect that triggered an unenjoyable response in me, but we hit on the key word to describe my response: it's when i cringe. This cringe response is less to violence, blood, or gore, and more to situations where a character is socially inappropriate without being aware why and likely to be laughed at or shunned, and the character has to sort out why.

( Why do i run to the kitchen? )

Looking for E. Quilibrium

Snaking out the sink didn't work last night.

I rode the bike a little last night.

Just before i started work i restored a ton of deleted files in my Evernote instead of the just one file i had accidentally deleted. The physical metaphor barely makes sense. "I reached into a recycle bin to pull out one file, and all the weeks worth of discarded papers lept out of the bin and filed themselves back into the files and folders where they used to be."

I can't remember if i took my morning dose of my antidepressant or not.

I like my pretend boss.

I think i did something helpful for someone else.

I think my lead engineer thinks i'm shrill and high-strung and doesn't respect me. It's hard to work through that perception to determine what the reality is and what to do about my perception. I acknowledge that my perception is affected by how different he is from the rest of the team in many unrelated dimensions and it may be more of a reflection of my insecurities.

I had a nice chat with a colleague, but it was only after some time where i was feeling like he was attacking me because he was so stressed out and reactive. I knew it wasn't me, i knew to be patient and not react, but ...oy. Lots of listening, lots of reflecting back what i was hearing.

When did steamed cabbage and potatoes become a meal that was so challenging i have to make it ahead?

One week until the current cash flow problems resolve themselves. Credit for necessities, but not for movies or dining out.

Christine had some idea for dinner, but she's at a talk and the Hagen Daas ice cream is in the fridge.