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Thursday, the nurse wrote, after i left a message in the chart software:
Friday morning i wrote, It will be a relief to know. I am glad that the prep for me before the surgery is minimal: discontinue one supplement, no analgesics. No big diet change.
I found out at around 11:45. I was in a bit of a spin and a bit emotional. The original denial came about two weeks before the original surgery scheduled date, that the insurance stuff far outweighed any anticipation of the actual surgery. Now it's less than a week away. Colleagues said, "Congratulations," which felt weird.
Other things were going on with work that heightened my emotions (experty visibility). Muchness. Christine has a Family Thing today that has her emotions all heightened, too. I think part of the feeling is a very low grade fear of a totally novel experience. Does it map to the same sort of experience as a colonoscopy or removal of wisdom teeth? Which were a blip of disruption. Am i being silly allowing two weeks for recovery? I guess i do have the experience of pneumonia, which didn't hospitalize me, but did take over a month for recovery. Anyhow. I continue to poke the future with sticks but will have to wait for it to transform to the present and past before i will know anything.
Meanwhile, on a conference website, labeled "Networking," this image:
I added the bars across the eyes (who knows if that's enough for facial recognition avoidance). Two other photos were in the series, "The Exhibition," which featured a single woman, and "The Conference," which had a crowd of people in chairs applauding with a woman center (a few others in the crowd of men). This photo -- well, i assume the conference is trying to be welcoming and show diversity, but this just resonates with the awkwardness i feel when facing all the tables at networking time at conferences and heightens it with all the suit jackets being all that navy-grey tone, and the woman standing wearing something else. Of course with me it was a bright tangerine orange. My copresenter commented that it was easy to find me in the crowd.
I just checked and it looks like a decision will be made tomorrow.
I am out of the office tomorrow but I will have the person who is working on your case (R--) send you a My Chart message when [they find] out.
Thanks,
A---
Friday morning i wrote, It will be a relief to know. I am glad that the prep for me before the surgery is minimal: discontinue one supplement, no analgesics. No big diet change.
I found out at around 11:45. I was in a bit of a spin and a bit emotional. The original denial came about two weeks before the original surgery scheduled date, that the insurance stuff far outweighed any anticipation of the actual surgery. Now it's less than a week away. Colleagues said, "Congratulations," which felt weird.
Other things were going on with work that heightened my emotions (experty visibility). Muchness. Christine has a Family Thing today that has her emotions all heightened, too. I think part of the feeling is a very low grade fear of a totally novel experience. Does it map to the same sort of experience as a colonoscopy or removal of wisdom teeth? Which were a blip of disruption. Am i being silly allowing two weeks for recovery? I guess i do have the experience of pneumonia, which didn't hospitalize me, but did take over a month for recovery. Anyhow. I continue to poke the future with sticks but will have to wait for it to transform to the present and past before i will know anything.
Meanwhile, on a conference website, labeled "Networking," this image:
I added the bars across the eyes (who knows if that's enough for facial recognition avoidance). Two other photos were in the series, "The Exhibition," which featured a single woman, and "The Conference," which had a crowd of people in chairs applauding with a woman center (a few others in the crowd of men). This photo -- well, i assume the conference is trying to be welcoming and show diversity, but this just resonates with the awkwardness i feel when facing all the tables at networking time at conferences and heightens it with all the suit jackets being all that navy-grey tone, and the woman standing wearing something else. Of course with me it was a bright tangerine orange. My copresenter commented that it was easy to find me in the crowd.