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I had a procrastination+depression weekend, but it was better than some. The weirdest thing about the weekend was how delighted i was by the concert on Friday night (expressively enthusiastic about the percussionists), and how i had a lovely coffee visit with friends Saturday -- and then felt i'd "wasted" the whole weekend by noon on Saturday. Not only is my sense of time screwed up, but there is something about *experiencing* the good pleasures of life that isn't happening for me. I don't feel guilt about the concert and coffee with friends: by noon Saturday they were null spaces where the time had disappeared since stoping work on the Monthly Report.
Christine and i talked about felt sense and pleasure for some time on Saturday, and i'm recalling the "Satisfaction Finder" process from early this year. I need to unlearn the ticking-of-tasks as pleasure and really learn to feel the pleasure in things that i know are good and restorative for me.
In TMI health news, i've not had much noticeable about reflux except for that time i got a pill stuck back in ... March? Before that, i'd had a few isolated symptoms that have made me suspect i have reflux. We elevated one end of the bed for about six months, but it drove Christine nuts. A week ago we returned the bed to horizontal. This morning i notice a slight acidity to a burp. Hmm. I have a incline pillow but it lifts me up to sleep by myself. (I gave up on it after one night.) Maybe i should try it again. Sigh.
Christine and i talked about felt sense and pleasure for some time on Saturday, and i'm recalling the "Satisfaction Finder" process from early this year. I need to unlearn the ticking-of-tasks as pleasure and really learn to feel the pleasure in things that i know are good and restorative for me.
In TMI health news, i've not had much noticeable about reflux except for that time i got a pill stuck back in ... March? Before that, i'd had a few isolated symptoms that have made me suspect i have reflux. We elevated one end of the bed for about six months, but it drove Christine nuts. A week ago we returned the bed to horizontal. This morning i notice a slight acidity to a burp. Hmm. I have a incline pillow but it lifts me up to sleep by myself. (I gave up on it after one night.) Maybe i should try it again. Sigh.
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