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When i left home yesterday it was clear, no clouds, not by bay or mountains. Very light dew. We are in a heat wave of sorts. When i left the office at 6:30 i was impressed by the heat i walked into: it was 90 in San Mateo then. There were only three gulls, a duck and two egrets at the water feature, which seemed to be very few, comparatively. It was also quite clear in the evening, not even fog snaking over the hills. October is our best beach month.
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I probably let myself get over-heated on the way home, but i know i wasn't feeling particularly motivated as i left work. I indulged in sugar in the middle of the afternoon: a mistake, i know. This is my addiction. I did have a good dinner when i got home: a black-eyed pea and cucumber salad i'd planned. I didn't do my "conditions of enoughness." I'll try again tonight, particularly with the housework items. My brother will spend the night with us Wednesday & Tuesday night, so i should prep for that disruption.
Learning how to balance is so hard for me.
Meanwhile, i woke this morning to all hell breaking loose at work. The question of drawing the line between work and self time is hard, too. I held back and let others contact me.
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I feel like i am ... different these days. Different from last year. I don't know if i am getting more and more consumed by work or what. Work and crochet? Is my being somewhat at peace with work creating a vacuum that work is then filling? I feel shallow-ish, as if i have no interesting thoughts.
On the other hand, maybe i am redirecting my focus from self examination to actually moving forward, thriving? That would be different! And would i recognize thriving?
Time to get ready for the commute. (Late, actually)
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I probably let myself get over-heated on the way home, but i know i wasn't feeling particularly motivated as i left work. I indulged in sugar in the middle of the afternoon: a mistake, i know. This is my addiction. I did have a good dinner when i got home: a black-eyed pea and cucumber salad i'd planned. I didn't do my "conditions of enoughness." I'll try again tonight, particularly with the housework items. My brother will spend the night with us Wednesday & Tuesday night, so i should prep for that disruption.
Learning how to balance is so hard for me.
Meanwhile, i woke this morning to all hell breaking loose at work. The question of drawing the line between work and self time is hard, too. I held back and let others contact me.
--==∞==--
I feel like i am ... different these days. Different from last year. I don't know if i am getting more and more consumed by work or what. Work and crochet? Is my being somewhat at peace with work creating a vacuum that work is then filling? I feel shallow-ish, as if i have no interesting thoughts.
On the other hand, maybe i am redirecting my focus from self examination to actually moving forward, thriving? That would be different! And would i recognize thriving?
Time to get ready for the commute. (Late, actually)
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