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[elainegrey]

"Start each day with expectation, end each with gratitude." I reread some advice i'd squirreled away for myself.

I suppose looking at the coming two weeks as an unwelcome roller coaster ride is a frame that won't shape my experiences well. I loved actual roller coasters as a kid, think fondly of them now, but never really liked the theme parks in which they are found.

And it's not entirely true. I can and will have the opportunity to pace myself. So maybe this is a chance to see if i can transform the sense that i displace my whole sense of being when i travel.

So today, i expect i will be able to plow through all sorts of details. There may be Surprise Meetings despite my blocking the day clear, but i should be able to settle in with my responsibilities after this three day weekend.

I am grateful for my Meeting, despite my befuddlement when it comes to the mythic beast called community. I ponder a message from worship, a sense that i am asking the wrong thing when i ask for a leading for what i am to do next, that i should instead ask where i am to lead others. "Write a book," floats through my mind, and i respond that there are too many books. (Nota bene: When Christine talks about writing books i encourage her and do not think there are too many books.)

I feel confident in the learning journey i have been on, incredibly fortunate in being placed on the path, but i don't know that it is translatable.

Comments

[laughingrat]

Well, if trying to reshape how you think about difficult stuff helps, go for it! But it sounds like that's a message that could twist around and bite you for not "framing it right," too.

[elainegrey]

Indeed, that's probably not the most compassionate way to coach myself! Thanks for pointing that out. I'm at a point, out of depression, where mental structures like how i frame things seem wonderfully maleable and the choices seem (relatively) easy. It's a good time to do some redecorating in order to make my mental home more comfortable.

[laughingrat]

Well, and right after I hit enter, I thought "And I should've added that EG will surely know what's best for herself" because you don't need my advice or something exactly, but I'm glad you took it in the spirit in which it was intended. :)