(quaker notes, work, adhd)

Yikes.

So, Monday through Thursday was an intense work week with mornings full of meetings starting earlier than usual, afternoons slightly less full of meetings but only enough time to write up and follow up on the burning urgent stuff.

My manager and the team's manager pro tem are in Sheffield England now, as well as the product analyst being in the Netherlands. The architect i most need to collaborate with is also in Sheffield. I know that our product analyst S--E-- has had to cope with lots of late night meetings, so starting meetings first thing is a small gesture of accommodation. No one is asking me to attend meetings at 6 am and 5 am (*shudder*) like i did when we lived in California! But it does mean an intensification from the past.

I'm hoping that the intensity is both post-vacation compression of meetings and the orientation of new folks.

Today stretches in front of me with a remarkably empty calendar (the S-- E-- doesn't work on Fridays, the team manager pro tem is off mountain biking today). How much can i expect of myself (my brain) today?

After work this week included planting trees by head lamp, digging up cala lily bulbs before the low of 15°F (-9°C) by head lamp, grocery shopping, and last night's Quaker committee meeting.

I successfully herded the Quaker cats! Yay. Admittedly the number of fresh participants from the community out-numbered the people who have been involved in dysfunctional processes, so that was a big help. We haz a retreat schedule! It took a while for everyone to wrap their head around the fact that the in-person gathering meal times needed some protection PLUS we had to account for the contiguous US time zones.

I did almost blow a gasket when i got off work late to find emails "are we having a meeting" and "i don't have a link" when i sent email
1. a week in advance to the whole organization announcing the meeting time and date with the link and
2. on Tuesday to the meeting participants with the agenda with time and date and link on Tuesday.

I know i need way more proof reading, but come on people.

I am reflecting on how happily people have received my organization. I think i may need to gently communicate that while i can be organized it is a skill, not a gift. I have to work hard to be organized, it takes a great deal of time and energy. I can pull it together for a quarter, but i cannot sustain it.

Do not ask me to be take on more leadership.