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On carrying insurance: When i was talking to an agent with our insurance company about coverage between the totaled car, Helen, and getting the Accent, Hélèn, she pointed out that we were carrying the minimum required by our state for compensating other drivers if we were at fault. We're raising it, at her advice, and because i recognized that if the driver who caused the accident we were in had the minimum $5k property liability, our totaled car wasn't fully covered by it.
Since then, though, i've been looking at the very expensive autos on Bay Area highways with aversion. I don't want to be in an accident where i am at fault, but being distracted happens. Having a moment of distraction at the same time another driver does something unpredictable is possible. If that means i rear end someone's super luxury vehicle -- well, i begin to resent that that person's choice to drive a luxury vehicle means i'm stuck paying for a luxury bumper instead of a regular old bumper (like there are any real bumpers these days).
I wish -- but not so much that i'm going to do anything but write out the wish -- that there were liability limits. I wish that if one buys a luxury vehicle one would be told that if one is in an accident where the other driver is at fault the max payout that driver will pay would cover a new not-luxury car, and that if one wants the whole car's value covered, one should insure the difference between non-luxury and luxury. I suppose that's comprehensive collision and even i carry it: my insurance company totaled our car and paid out to us without consulting with the person at fault's insurance. Presumably they're dragging that out and someday we'll see our deductible back.
Right now i am very fond of econo box Hélèn.
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I'm trying to find a meditative way to frame my lost things. I'm holding the rune Pertho in the adobe home that is at the entrance to the western garden of my meditation mandala. I'm find myself sitting in the "deep" part of the room, away from the large opening out to the grassy, loamy field where the horses are, away from the large table around which community gathers, but back against the solid adobe wall, with niches for holding things. I don't have much stored in this room, just some gifts of energy spheres that didn't make much sense to me when i received them a decade ago, and still don't.
I'm not sure why lost things agitate me so. While i think the sense of Lost Thing as compared to random misplaced things has to do with my personal creative connection to the Thing (poetry, art lost in the mail, journals forgotten and accidentally left behind), the agitation isn't over misplaced Self, but (ah-ha) the sense of failure to be responsible.
I'd been holding out for myself the opening that Lost Things create, trying to talk myself into a frame of new opportunity, but i'm not addressing the Failure To Have My Act Together with that frame.
Agitation around Lost Things is a facet of perfectionism.
Not sure how to frame from here. (Apologies to Asatru and other adherents of the Northern Way. My frames are not Nordic Way frames, but the symbols of that Way are very powerful for me.) Pertho, sometimes imagined by rune workers as a dice cup, invokes for me the same sense of fault/no-fault that i was reflecting on as i wrote about insurance. If i am distracted from the road, say puzzled by a billboard and looking at it one more time, and that distraction leads me to rear end someone changing lanes ahead of me, i am at fault, but not a failure. So many times i experience a second glance at a odd bumpersticker, billboard, driver -- a distraction -- and i do NOT have an accident. Similarly, i carry many things with me, day in and day out and frequently
do not loose them. The probabilities are non-zero, and the frequency is high, so i do loose things, forget things, etc. It's a fault, not a failure. Does that framing help me?
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Health inventory:
On the premise that the esophagus discomfort was related to acid reflux i started a course of Omeprazole when i returned home from travel.
Reviewing the litany: Scalp has been basically OK. Mouth has had an occasional canker but NOTHING like the July-October issue. I think the iron is working. My torso is itching a lot lately: i'm not sure what that's about precisely. Where my bras go around me seems to be developing a contact dermatitis: i finally used the Clobetasol on it last night and will see if that helps. My ring finger gets little tapioca bumps now and then, and now and then i use the clobetasol there. I've not had the large blistering for a while. I'm wearing my wedding ring. Psoriasis zone A still under care. Digestive system seems good given the omeprazole for the upper system. To balance the effects of the iron, i'm still taking Docusate but i'm down to one every three days.
Since then, though, i've been looking at the very expensive autos on Bay Area highways with aversion. I don't want to be in an accident where i am at fault, but being distracted happens. Having a moment of distraction at the same time another driver does something unpredictable is possible. If that means i rear end someone's super luxury vehicle -- well, i begin to resent that that person's choice to drive a luxury vehicle means i'm stuck paying for a luxury bumper instead of a regular old bumper (like there are any real bumpers these days).
I wish -- but not so much that i'm going to do anything but write out the wish -- that there were liability limits. I wish that if one buys a luxury vehicle one would be told that if one is in an accident where the other driver is at fault the max payout that driver will pay would cover a new not-luxury car, and that if one wants the whole car's value covered, one should insure the difference between non-luxury and luxury. I suppose that's comprehensive collision and even i carry it: my insurance company totaled our car and paid out to us without consulting with the person at fault's insurance. Presumably they're dragging that out and someday we'll see our deductible back.
Right now i am very fond of econo box Hélèn.
--==∞==--
I'm trying to find a meditative way to frame my lost things. I'm holding the rune Pertho in the adobe home that is at the entrance to the western garden of my meditation mandala. I'm find myself sitting in the "deep" part of the room, away from the large opening out to the grassy, loamy field where the horses are, away from the large table around which community gathers, but back against the solid adobe wall, with niches for holding things. I don't have much stored in this room, just some gifts of energy spheres that didn't make much sense to me when i received them a decade ago, and still don't.
I'm not sure why lost things agitate me so. While i think the sense of Lost Thing as compared to random misplaced things has to do with my personal creative connection to the Thing (poetry, art lost in the mail, journals forgotten and accidentally left behind), the agitation isn't over misplaced Self, but (ah-ha) the sense of failure to be responsible.
I'd been holding out for myself the opening that Lost Things create, trying to talk myself into a frame of new opportunity, but i'm not addressing the Failure To Have My Act Together with that frame.
Agitation around Lost Things is a facet of perfectionism.
Not sure how to frame from here. (Apologies to Asatru and other adherents of the Northern Way. My frames are not Nordic Way frames, but the symbols of that Way are very powerful for me.) Pertho, sometimes imagined by rune workers as a dice cup, invokes for me the same sense of fault/no-fault that i was reflecting on as i wrote about insurance. If i am distracted from the road, say puzzled by a billboard and looking at it one more time, and that distraction leads me to rear end someone changing lanes ahead of me, i am at fault, but not a failure. So many times i experience a second glance at a odd bumpersticker, billboard, driver -- a distraction -- and i do NOT have an accident. Similarly, i carry many things with me, day in and day out and frequently
do not loose them. The probabilities are non-zero, and the frequency is high, so i do loose things, forget things, etc. It's a fault, not a failure. Does that framing help me?
--==∞==--
Health inventory:
On the premise that the esophagus discomfort was related to acid reflux i started a course of Omeprazole when i returned home from travel.
Reviewing the litany: Scalp has been basically OK. Mouth has had an occasional canker but NOTHING like the July-October issue. I think the iron is working. My torso is itching a lot lately: i'm not sure what that's about precisely. Where my bras go around me seems to be developing a contact dermatitis: i finally used the Clobetasol on it last night and will see if that helps. My ring finger gets little tapioca bumps now and then, and now and then i use the clobetasol there. I've not had the large blistering for a while. I'm wearing my wedding ring. Psoriasis zone A still under care. Digestive system seems good given the omeprazole for the upper system. To balance the effects of the iron, i'm still taking Docusate but i'm down to one every three days.
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