Serenitree

[elainegrey]

I'm not feeling the serenity this morning: tea kettle failed, stove took FOREVER, so i checked work email on my phone after the kitchen was tidy and found crises out the wazoo. (Is that how one spells that? Christine laughs when i ask her for spelling help.)

I do not begrudge Christine her morning grieving. It is there, too, though, and it feels like a part of serenity and thriving. I will let her teach me how to grieve.

What helps me here? Feeling i can trust my new director and trading-places-manager. I've been ticking through my morning checklist. I've set a Condition of Enoughness for the day.

I was exchanging brief words with piemancer about paper journals vs typed, and i reflected on how i'm enjoying my digital pens because i can now doodle like the below and yet have the notes with me wherever i am (thanks to the synchronization magic of Evernote). (I may still be traumatized by loosing a paper journal in college.)


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Comments

[zlabya]

I like that doodle! Virtual drawing is fun. (I have only the pen, "marker" and pencil that come with my iPad, but I have many colors and sizes to go with them.)

Grieving is a hard thing, partly as each loss seems to need its own grieving pattern. I'm trying to figure out how to grieve the loss of our chance to have a child and am still searching. Learning from others does help.

[elainegrey]

I bought the iPad application Procreate early on and have given away my big box of crayons and my colored pencil collection and i'm not sure what else: i enjoy having the "sketch pad" with me whenever the whim strikes me.

Your loss sounds like a hard one to grieve in that the sense of grief might be evoked by very unexpected things, and it might not be clear that's what the grief is about. I'll hold you both in my thoughts.