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I've been awfully dull this past week, a continuation of dull over the past months. Dull dull dull and boring. I want to start crocheting again, start so much else, but feel like i've been in some sort of fog since coming back from North Carolina. I know we *have* done things, i have made progress in improving my home environment and my health, progress at work, progress with Meeting responsibilities. This would be why i keep such tedious notes.
Objectively, i'm not stuck.
The vitamin D and other oils have cleared up so much of my psoriasis that i am back to wearing my wedding ring and the horrible area that formed right after the October rains, and looked like it was a burn or large birthmark on my shin, is now almost imperceptible.
Some of the other health complaints are less frequent and less extreme (although i did have one of those canker inflammations that seem to go beyond the localized discomfort to a larger inflammation of facial muscles this week).
I've had good visits with my brother's family.
I *have* been sick -- and finally, sometime this weekend, feel well. The backlog of stuff that has formed while i was sick, and the *HABIT* of being sick and dull both weigh on me.
Oh, woe.
Early this morning i was having a dream that was not easily shaken, more concrete than usual. Something about Christine and i being in a hotel room/residence facility, some hint it was a retirement home for Friends, but not exactly. There were comings and goings to cafeterias for meals, mild dissatisfaction, and a need to return home by air separately. I was flying home first and wanted to carry as much as i could so Christine wouldn't be stuck paying extra baggage fees -- more stress and dissatisfaction. Really, i didn't want to be away. The two beds in the room bothered me.
Greycie Loo is now sleeping between us, and i think i resent being separated from Christine by her leaden feline weight. (Other times she's light as a feather.)
Care Check-In
Have i been using those tools that i know make my life better? (Or that i'm experimenting with?)
X be aware of joy and abundance (1): delighted with my brother's visit, but otherwise dull
X be aware of transitions (joy/flow/meander) (1): very off and on, not gentle ramps
◊ respond to weekly journal prompts & health chart (1): not really, particularly failing at the health chart
◊ care for physical health - supplements, treatments, adaptions (1): I've pretty much given up on the Querc but the oils & D, the diet (except for some splurges with N's visit)
X exercise or "work break walk" daily (1,4):
X use "emotional hacks" [1] to avoid paralysis (1,4):
X balance expressive creation, nurturing, and consuming others' (5,6):
◊ ruthlessly delete cruft (1,4,6): slow progress getting some things out. Need a place for packing peanuts
X keep up with to-do's without overwhelming self:
? use mental/emotional bookmarking:
X identify yams [2]:
Aspects: 1. SELF 2. F&F 3. COM 4. WORK 5. CRT 6. HOME
[1] http://elainegrey.livejournal.com/1164774.html?thread=1319398#t1319398
[2] http://elainegrey.livejournal.com/1041377.html?thread=1116129#t1116129
updated 2010-01-08 reorg & rewrite
updated 2008-08-21 aspect notes
Objectively, i'm not stuck.
The vitamin D and other oils have cleared up so much of my psoriasis that i am back to wearing my wedding ring and the horrible area that formed right after the October rains, and looked like it was a burn or large birthmark on my shin, is now almost imperceptible.
Some of the other health complaints are less frequent and less extreme (although i did have one of those canker inflammations that seem to go beyond the localized discomfort to a larger inflammation of facial muscles this week).
I've had good visits with my brother's family.
I *have* been sick -- and finally, sometime this weekend, feel well. The backlog of stuff that has formed while i was sick, and the *HABIT* of being sick and dull both weigh on me.
Oh, woe.
Early this morning i was having a dream that was not easily shaken, more concrete than usual. Something about Christine and i being in a hotel room/residence facility, some hint it was a retirement home for Friends, but not exactly. There were comings and goings to cafeterias for meals, mild dissatisfaction, and a need to return home by air separately. I was flying home first and wanted to carry as much as i could so Christine wouldn't be stuck paying extra baggage fees -- more stress and dissatisfaction. Really, i didn't want to be away. The two beds in the room bothered me.
Greycie Loo is now sleeping between us, and i think i resent being separated from Christine by her leaden feline weight. (Other times she's light as a feather.)
Care Check-In
Have i been using those tools that i know make my life better? (Or that i'm experimenting with?)
X be aware of joy and abundance (1): delighted with my brother's visit, but otherwise dull
X be aware of transitions (joy/flow/meander) (1): very off and on, not gentle ramps
◊ respond to weekly journal prompts & health chart (1): not really, particularly failing at the health chart
◊ care for physical health - supplements, treatments, adaptions (1): I've pretty much given up on the Querc but the oils & D, the diet (except for some splurges with N's visit)
X exercise or "work break walk" daily (1,4):
X use "emotional hacks" [1] to avoid paralysis (1,4):
X balance expressive creation, nurturing, and consuming others' (5,6):
◊ ruthlessly delete cruft (1,4,6): slow progress getting some things out. Need a place for packing peanuts
X keep up with to-do's without overwhelming self:
? use mental/emotional bookmarking:
X identify yams [2]:
Aspects: 1. SELF 2. F&F 3. COM 4. WORK 5. CRT 6. HOME
[1] http://elainegrey.livejournal.com/1164774.html?thread=1319398#t1319398
[2] http://elainegrey.livejournal.com/1041377.html?thread=1116129#t1116129
updated 2010-01-08 reorg & rewrite
updated 2008-08-21 aspect notes
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