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Yesterday: I DID IT! The project milestone and tasks "outline" is done. And i've made friends with the Microsoft Word cross-reference tool, although it's regrettable the cross reference links don't become hotlinks in the html export.
Thursday i found out that someone was coming out from the home office to "help get it done." I knew it was late, but i thought the idea was an odd escalation from a single email. Usually one follows up with a second email. Of course, i'd had a phone discussion with the person coming out on Wednesday letting them know it was back in my priority pile after returning from my vacation.
Nonetheless, having a captive audience means that we can go through the document and review the whole thing, in particular the many aspects that depend on decisions outside our group. So, at minimum it's a captive audience; at best, some of the questions be handed to someone who may have the ability to get them resolved.
Meanwhile, my system began returning to the usual irritations on Wednesday and was in full swing on Thursday. I don't think it was the potential cross-contamination between waffles: i think it's stress. (I hold out that possibly some GI symptoms are due to corn.) The proof is in the challenge: returning tea, wheat, and dairy to my diet with some force and seeing if i can force a major flare. If it's not distinguishable from the usual irregular flares and and irritations, withholding wheat and/or dairy isn't a solution i'll address right now. (I remain suspicious that by not doing a complete elimination diet and taking everything out, that synergistic effects or multiple allergies could be missed.)
I've had an experiment of not journalling everything publicly for a month plus. I don't think it's improved the writing i do publicly, nor do i believe it's improved how i connect with my online friends. If anything, i feel more distant and disconnected -- but i think that has something more to do with my ability and resources to engage with people.
I lack time.
My priorities of heart really are my projects. I've tried in a few limited ways to interact while doing projects, and interact by giving away project results. Vacation showed me how delighted and relaxed i can be spending half a day creating a color palette and picking out fonts. Or learning a new application. Or hacking data. And these passions take up so much of my cognitive energy, that when i step away, the relief comes not from interacting.
It's not to say i don't want to be social or ...
Well, i have been called to breakfast. I'll continue this thought someday!
Thursday i found out that someone was coming out from the home office to "help get it done." I knew it was late, but i thought the idea was an odd escalation from a single email. Usually one follows up with a second email. Of course, i'd had a phone discussion with the person coming out on Wednesday letting them know it was back in my priority pile after returning from my vacation.
Nonetheless, having a captive audience means that we can go through the document and review the whole thing, in particular the many aspects that depend on decisions outside our group. So, at minimum it's a captive audience; at best, some of the questions be handed to someone who may have the ability to get them resolved.
Meanwhile, my system began returning to the usual irritations on Wednesday and was in full swing on Thursday. I don't think it was the potential cross-contamination between waffles: i think it's stress. (I hold out that possibly some GI symptoms are due to corn.) The proof is in the challenge: returning tea, wheat, and dairy to my diet with some force and seeing if i can force a major flare. If it's not distinguishable from the usual irregular flares and and irritations, withholding wheat and/or dairy isn't a solution i'll address right now. (I remain suspicious that by not doing a complete elimination diet and taking everything out, that synergistic effects or multiple allergies could be missed.)
I've had an experiment of not journalling everything publicly for a month plus. I don't think it's improved the writing i do publicly, nor do i believe it's improved how i connect with my online friends. If anything, i feel more distant and disconnected -- but i think that has something more to do with my ability and resources to engage with people.
I lack time.
My priorities of heart really are my projects. I've tried in a few limited ways to interact while doing projects, and interact by giving away project results. Vacation showed me how delighted and relaxed i can be spending half a day creating a color palette and picking out fonts. Or learning a new application. Or hacking data. And these passions take up so much of my cognitive energy, that when i step away, the relief comes not from interacting.
It's not to say i don't want to be social or ...
Well, i have been called to breakfast. I'll continue this thought someday!