(procrastination, f&f, work)

[elainegrey]

I'm not sure why but i feel totally exhausted. Some personal interactions, i think, one at work, one with Christine. I am very happy that my colleague -- who has be in the cruel, slow lay-off because she cannot work in the office the three days a week because she is primary care provider for her elderly, stroke survivor mother --she has a job! With a "Assistant Vice President" title. She has been churning on self doubt, and i have been cheering her to claim the skills she has. I pointed her to the term "imposter syndrome" and pointed out the issue is all the subtle signals women in tech get (and i've seen her deal with additional issues due to race). I hope she can really rock it.

But i am going to miss her.

Also, I may have asked for more from my coach than i need. I may be at the "i have to do thing because i said i would do thing, not because i enjoy thing" point of making myself miserable.