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Argh. So, i'm up and giving myself a little personal time to wake up before i cram through my monthly report. I had to change a password to access work email yesterday , so i log the change in evernote & see a reminder to update my password on my phone. I do so, but get error after error. Long troubleshooting story short, on trying the third toatally different access application, i get the error, "The website encountered an error while retrieving https://[whale.tld]/exchange. It may be down for maintenance or configured incorrectly."
OK, so it's not due to my password change. Exhale.
And there goes a half hour of "me" time.
Sunday's flight was uneventful, although my 40 minute layover in Dallas was as short as it could be for me to catch the next flight. I was willing to take the gamble on my way to the Whale's offices.
Yesterday morning i worked on my talk for Wednesday and pretty much pulled it together before starting my work day. I saw New Director twice. He stated he was planning something in managing his team's organization: after Old Boss's collaborative and communicative style, i find myself both angered and made anxious by the announcement that he's thinking about changes but still running through them with the VP. I also feel completely irritated by his management of the new hire process (we discussed that first thing in the day), although i am glad to off-load the responsibility on some other manager. Done well, this would be a Good Thing. The first victim New Director chose has said, "No Way," so New Director is going to pass the new hire to the third manager. There is clearly some sort of negative personal dynamics going on between third manager and the colleague she will need to collaborate with in making this hire.
I think there were other messages he gave me about my value and capabilities that dug under my skin. I will comfort myself by suspecting that he's been influenced by the VP, and that there's a substantial lack of emotional intelligence in how they understand what goes on. Instead it's as if they were relating to chess board pieces and reading scripts from leadership books.
Today the meetings are MUCH longer and, while one is a meeting with New Director and the VP, in all the others i should be able to just be present.
I find myself reflecting on the queries i read as the plane was landing. They were about living so one could be listening for a call. For years when i was working at the Minnow i was very clear that i was still learning and that i was at the right place. I'm less clear now, but i believe i can do my current job better with respect to caring for my staff (must be able to keep my oxygen mask on as i do so).
I guess i really need to do the re-membering project as a next step.
OK, so it's not due to my password change. Exhale.
And there goes a half hour of "me" time.
Sunday's flight was uneventful, although my 40 minute layover in Dallas was as short as it could be for me to catch the next flight. I was willing to take the gamble on my way to the Whale's offices.
Yesterday morning i worked on my talk for Wednesday and pretty much pulled it together before starting my work day. I saw New Director twice. He stated he was planning something in managing his team's organization: after Old Boss's collaborative and communicative style, i find myself both angered and made anxious by the announcement that he's thinking about changes but still running through them with the VP. I also feel completely irritated by his management of the new hire process (we discussed that first thing in the day), although i am glad to off-load the responsibility on some other manager. Done well, this would be a Good Thing. The first victim New Director chose has said, "No Way," so New Director is going to pass the new hire to the third manager. There is clearly some sort of negative personal dynamics going on between third manager and the colleague she will need to collaborate with in making this hire.
I think there were other messages he gave me about my value and capabilities that dug under my skin. I will comfort myself by suspecting that he's been influenced by the VP, and that there's a substantial lack of emotional intelligence in how they understand what goes on. Instead it's as if they were relating to chess board pieces and reading scripts from leadership books.
Today the meetings are MUCH longer and, while one is a meeting with New Director and the VP, in all the others i should be able to just be present.
I find myself reflecting on the queries i read as the plane was landing. They were about living so one could be listening for a call. For years when i was working at the Minnow i was very clear that i was still learning and that i was at the right place. I'm less clear now, but i believe i can do my current job better with respect to caring for my staff (must be able to keep my oxygen mask on as i do so).
I guess i really need to do the re-membering project as a next step.
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