I've spent much of the morning searching for a nutritionist. I think i will try to put some effort towards intervention. I could do interviews and a food diary in August, actual diet change in September into October. Much later and SAD and flu season could affect results.
As i've read many websites of practitioners associated with National Association of Nutrition Professionals (NANP) today, i find myself feeling depressed and cynical. A friend starts a chat:
R: [friend] says that he's suspicious of any food that he particularly likes or wants
Me: That's one theory -- that the cravings are related to triggered sensitivity reactions.
R: exactly, "if I crave it it must be bad for me."
Me: That goes against the "i can trust my body" lesson i've been learning, so if i do this on my own i'll definitely have a huge cognitive struggle. On the other hand, so many of these nutritionists' websites seem evangelistic with respect to "whole foods cure everything" -- and we *do* eat a good deal of whole foods.
Yesterday's picnics were lovely, despite the surprising midafternoon occurrence of a smattering of raindrops. Incredibly localized, so the date will likely be recorded as having no rain in the area. Friends had good conversation, good bread. Seeing my sister-in-law was a little odd, as she had encountered friends from Beijing. They chatted about their Beijing friends, the exodus back to home countries as companies reduce size in the recession, school gossip, and so on. It was somewhat enlightening just to overhear. I'm reminded of my impression of 19th century British colonialists in India and other countries: both a smallness and narrowness of community. The numbers of people in the community are small and "everybody knows everybody's business," and the community is populated by a fairly homogeneous group of people: similar corporate employers, similar family situations. I wonder how hard it is to connect back to people outside of that milieu. I know how hard it is for me to connect back to my mom and extended family at times just with a life that centers around the virtual plane.