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Yesterday i found out the sad news that a couple i've know for ages is divorcing. I knew one party to the relationship ages ago, but had chosen not to keep that relationship alive. I since developed a relationship with the other party through Meeting. I think my friend, aware i knew her partner first, was keeping me at a distance, but yesterday she opened up to me, first asking if her partner had contact me. It was the first i heard of their news.
I've done a little processing: my friendship with her partner faded to memory years ago, my relationship with her is the active one at this time. I don't want to "pick sides" but i do want to support DM. It's taking some energy to clear way for that.
I don't think that was part of the trigger for the migraine-like headache i had yesterday evening, but it hasn't helped. Visual distortions in the grocery store, then light sensitivity for the rest of the evening. I don't feel i'm getting the week off on a good start.
I did get rest this weekend, so that's good. The wish to start this week with "things under control" is pretty powerful, even as i know it is such an illusion.
Christine asked after the "May Install Debacle" that i see unfolding ahead of the organization. It's there, and the leadership is completely ignoring it. My pretend boss is having to deal with family issues, and it's really not her job to resolve it. I'm learning: here comes the train wreck, maybe i should stay out of its way instead of trying to prevent it. It feels ... passive-aggressive (is that my equivalent of "cowardly"?) to stand aside, but it is So Not My Job to get in the middle of this.
I want to write, "Who knows, maybe it's all under control and there won't be a debacle. Maybe the leadership is discussing this and understands the problems, and is coming to a resolution." But, HAW, what a joke.
Maybe i should stay home sick today. Ugh.
I've done a little processing: my friendship with her partner faded to memory years ago, my relationship with her is the active one at this time. I don't want to "pick sides" but i do want to support DM. It's taking some energy to clear way for that.
I don't think that was part of the trigger for the migraine-like headache i had yesterday evening, but it hasn't helped. Visual distortions in the grocery store, then light sensitivity for the rest of the evening. I don't feel i'm getting the week off on a good start.
I did get rest this weekend, so that's good. The wish to start this week with "things under control" is pretty powerful, even as i know it is such an illusion.
Christine asked after the "May Install Debacle" that i see unfolding ahead of the organization. It's there, and the leadership is completely ignoring it. My pretend boss is having to deal with family issues, and it's really not her job to resolve it. I'm learning: here comes the train wreck, maybe i should stay out of its way instead of trying to prevent it. It feels ... passive-aggressive (is that my equivalent of "cowardly"?) to stand aside, but it is So Not My Job to get in the middle of this.
I want to write, "Who knows, maybe it's all under control and there won't be a debacle. Maybe the leadership is discussing this and understands the problems, and is coming to a resolution." But, HAW, what a joke.
Maybe i should stay home sick today. Ugh.
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