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Tuesday, August 20th, 2024 07:24 am

A hawk cried across the sky, screamed from the western pine snag, and has moved along. The crow calls have stopped as well, so i suppose they were threatening to harass it.

It is in the mid 60s (°F) outside and the nearest dogwood is fluorescing red as the green fades. It arches over the yellow of the cutleaf coneflower. I can't smell the figs this morning, but there are so many and I am so behind. The hornets cut through some of the organza bags, so i used the bags less, a bit. I can see, though, that the bags helped with fruit flies. It's just so slow to put on the bags, and so many figs to pick.

I made and had a 5 jar out of 9 success in canning the following sauce recipe on Saturday, and have a couple more quart jars of the dried figs. (More raisin-tender than the rocks I made when i was terrified of moisture.) I fermented some puree that i used to replace water in my buckwheat bread recipe after seeing recipes for fermented fig butter. Those recipes called for adding kvass, which sounds like essentially lightly fermented fruit jusice. Since the figs are fermenting fine, i didn't bother. I wonder though what the bright ruby juice that separates from the solids tastes like. I wonder lots of things but i also wonder if i have the time to experiment.

A reliable fig apple jam recipe for canning is surprisingly hard to come by. I shall wing it this week.

I had some self critical spirals that may be entwined with worrying about how i am bruising and developing petechiae. (From falling down and scraping up my arm and legs? No bruises from that. Tapping my chin on the ladder? A big black bruise on my chin.) I'm feeling a little better We had a short notice gathering with my sister and her family last night to celebrate their eldest who moves into his dorms at NYU on Saturday. He is such a great kid, er, young man. I love listening to him and Christine talk.

I've bought some seaweed foraged in Maine: Irish Moss, "Kombu" (given as Laminaria digitata so an Atlantic species), and a Soup Mix - "Wakame" (Alaria esculenta), Sugar Kelp (Saccharina latissima), "Kombu" (Laminaria digitata). Saccharina latissima ios also known as Kombu

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My idiosyncratic recipe development where i am trying to figure out how much of each recipe quality is needed so i can substitute and riff away, and also guestimate the quantity.

Aromatics & Spices (~ 0.5 cup)

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1/4 cup olive oil

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1/2 - 1/3 cup fresh alliums (onions, garlic) Using *my walking onion
tops* and bottoms

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1 tbsp peeled and chopped ginger

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/HEAT 7 tsp/

  o

    1 tablespoon smoked paprika

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    1 tbsp (1 dried pepper) ancho/poblano (/If using whole peppers,
    bloom with  onions)/

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    /2024-08-17: used two of my 2022 cayenne peppers during the
    onion stage. Noticeable heat!/

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    1 teaspoon freshly ground black pepper /2024-08-17 used up the
    last of the white pepper. Meh. Had to add black pepper later./

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Ground spices

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    2 teaspoons ground **my *coriander
    *

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    1 teaspoon ground cumin

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    1/2 teaspoon ground allspice /2024-08-17  used clove/

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Umami

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    1 tbsp nutritional yeast

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/2024-08-17: two eights of a preserved lime - So! Much! Salt!/

1.

Grind coriander seed.

2.

Measure spices into bowl

3.

Prep onions and ginger

4.

Heat oil in pan, add alliums, soften

5.

Bloom spices

6.

Add umami (and preserved lime)

FIGS

Two quart jars of very ripe figs ~ 3 - 4 cups as fig puree. Used 2.25 cooked ripe figs and pureed another quart jar with very ripe figs

ACID

2 3/4 cups of spiced and sweetened apple cider vinegar. /2024-08-17 left over from making spiced pickled apples. Had a 1:3 or 1:4 ratio with brown sugar. /

Mustard (or 1 cup Dijon)

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2/3 c water in bowl

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1/3 c yellow mustard powder

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1/3 c distilled vinegar

1.

Assemble 15 min timer, whisk, measured water in vessel > 1 cup,
distilled vinegar, mustard powder, 1/3 c measure.

2.

Add powder, set timer for 5 - 15 min, measure vinegar /2024-08-17 10
minutes was not too much of a kick/

3.

At timer, add vinegar to stop heat development
  1. Add fig puree and vinegar

Final adjustments //

/Added black pepper , 2024-08-18/

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1 tablespoon kosher salt

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additional vinegar
  • Processing *

Simmer until thick enough, well over 30 min, dropping a noticeable amount in the pot.

15 min water/steam processing of 8 4 oz jars and one pint, plus about 8 oz un-canned.  (~56 fluid oz)

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Wednesday, May 2nd, 2018 07:09 am
The cold seems to have "burned" some of the lilac and azalea blooms, but the peony from Christine's family is blooming quite prettily.

I haven't gotten out because i am feeling miserable. My mouth is ulcerated in many spots and the inflammation goes up into my sinuses. Oh woe is me.

Due to the discomfort, i've been eating lots of white bread. This is probably not helpful as i suspect something in wheat products to make me more susceptible to irritations like this. (Although, the iron fortification actually prevents a certain type of ulceration under my tongue.) I'll add back iron supplements to my evening doses, but in the short term i wanted something soothing and gluten free. I made Vivian Howard's cornbread coffee cake (from another recipe on the web where pecans are in the streusel) with substitutions of corn flour for the whole wheat flour and a healthy dose of xanthan gum. (And frozen peaches for the strawberries.)

The most problematic part of cooking was that my cast iron pan is eight inches in diameter. So, i used a square baking dish that probably wasn't quite right in volume and area and heat behavior, and it took forever. By the fourth time i was checking, i was just stabbing the cake through the overdone streusel on the top, and pulling out a chunk -- when it was finally an actual chunk i was delighted. It's GOOD, and i'm eyeing a 10" cast iron deep pan and a lid.

I don't have a Dutch oven. The deep pan would hold four quarts instead of the Lodge Dutch oven which holds five. With just two of us, the smaller volume probably isn't bad. Skimming through the Dutch oven recipes out there, though, it seems like most are dishes i'd make in the pressure cooker.
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Tuesday, February 27th, 2018 07:06 am
I am delighted with the results of whipping my own cream cheese. It's far better than the stuff sold as whipped cream cheese -- smoother and more cream cheese-like. And yay, reduced plastic waste.

It was simple, with a hand held mixer, to fluff up a block of softened "Neufchatel" with a little bit of milk. I feared that the once i put it back in the fridge it would firm up and be just as hard to spread -- but no! Easy to spread!

I look forward to adding herbs from the garden this summer.
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Sunday, January 8th, 2017 08:06 pm
I made a grits and greens casserole tonight. So. Many. Pots. Hmph. It's like the food is twice cooked: fix the greens, fix up the textured vegetable protein, fix up the grits. Then bake it all. The kitchen got quite warm, which was fine, all things considered. I fixed the vegetable protein with apple cider vinegar and sorghum molasses, ingredients in NC eastern BBQ sauce. I think that turned out pretty well, although maybe it was just a bit much vinegar and not enough red pepper.

We've been running the logs for a while, then turn them off when the thermostat reaches 70°F. When it gets to 65°F we turn them back on. I'm running the ceiling fan in when the logs are on. Note to self: clean the blades BEFORE reversing the rotation direction. Or, maybe, note that a real quick way to clean the blades is to reverse the rotation. But the rest of the room has mats of cat fluff spread everywhere.

I do feel thrifty in that i figured out that the HVAC system has a "circulate" function. By turning that on we could circulate the heated air throughout more of the home. I'm not sure what to do tonight. We let the temps drop down to 60°F at night, but the heater is going to need to run frequently to make up the 50°F to 60°F difference with outside.

I haven't had a heat pump as a heater since becoming an adult. The heat in Philly was unstoppable steam heat. It ran, and you managed the temperature by opening windows. In San Francisco we had gas heat. In Mountain View there were several electric base boards. I grew to distrust all of them, and we just used a space heater.
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Thursday, May 14th, 2015 05:26 pm
Thunder! Rainrainrainrainrain! Oh my so delightful!

Christine came through the extraction fine just fine. Here's hoping first that the pain meds and antibiotics all have minimal side effects, and then that the reality helps dampen any concerns about further work. Probiotics acquired on the theory it will minimize any digestive side effects for her.

While she was in the chair, i visited a nearby Indian market and delighted in the spiced scents. I managed not to buy sweets, but did buy a bunch of vacuum packaged meals for Christine. And i got fresh paneer. There was a sale on tamarind concentrate, so tonight i will make coconut-tamarind fish for myself. I went through a half dozen recipes trying to derive a general theory of tomato-tamarind and coconut-tamarind curries. It looks like there's a few yogurt tamarind combinations -- including a mint yogurt tamarind soup.
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Tuesday, August 19th, 2014 06:19 am
I spent last night cooking, and it was a bit frustrating.

The first dish was to use up some beets and apples that had been aging at the bottom of the crisper and were no longer crisp. (Actually, one apple was fabulous. I wish i knew what type that keeper was.) I used this recipe as an inspiration, less the orange, and i added some similarly sad carrots: http://kblog.lunchboxbunch.com/2013/11/ginger-citrus-maple-roasted-beets.html

This seemed to go just fine.

The next dish was to address the eggplants and fresh black-eyed peas from the veggie box. I added far more coconut (sweetened) and didn't churn it into a paste. Also, no curry leaves or fenugreek. (Thank you wikipedia for translating unfamiliar ingredients into those i had a prayer of finding.) I wanted to use the pressure cooker and i also added rice. The step of frying the onions and spices went well, but tossing in the rice and then eggplant hit some strange issue where the "high" stove eye setting seemed to be interpreted as the neighboring "off" setting. (I had just put water on to boil on the back stove eye: coincidence?) After realizing i wasn't toasting the rice, i got the heat back and thought i was doing well building up pressure when i realized the rocker wasn't rocking but all the steam was existing through a rubber pressure release. I tapped it a few times (with the corner of an empty pasta box) and managed to somehow have the release go in against the pressure and release even more pressure.

I think i managed to get the rice and beans cooked. I was very tempted to stand and pick out every black-eyed pea to eat after tasting the first six or seven to see if they were cooked. (Boiled peanuts: i miss them.) This is lined up for lunch today, and three other servings are packed in the freezer for lunches into next week.

http://www.ohtastensee.com/2013/01/27/kaaramani-kathirikkai-kuzhambublack-eyed-peas-and-eggplant-spicy-curry/

Finally, i prepared this salad. The pasta suffered first from neglect as i realized that the heat had left my curry dish, and then it too lost heat and so the pasta was cooked in weird cycles of boiling and cooling water. Something about the flavoring was lost, although i had just spent a good amount of time in a curry scented sauna. I wish i'd had oil cured black olives instead of brine cured. Also, i think lemon instead of red wine vinegar would have dressed it more to my taste.

http://www.myrecipes.com/recipe/nioise-pasta-salad-10000001909080/
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Thursday, March 15th, 2012 05:09 pm
So i should fix something to eat: Christine's out of the house today and i've just interspersed some work calls and email with identifying flowers from a walk last Saturday: i decided i would use my pinterest account to "collect" the identifying images: http://pinterest.com/elainegrey/northern-california-environment/ I expect it will be easier to page through that than evernote, although i've also started pages in evernote for ID'ed flowers.

Hungry, i didn't see anything to eat, so clearly i'd have to cook. I had earlier planned to do something with rice, but when i opened the fridge i saw the ripe plantain. It probably won't be any good when i come back from my travels, so now is a good time to eat it. I skimmed through the wikipedia article to see if there was anything to do but fry it. " In Ghana, boiled plantain is eaten with ... cabbage stew. " Hmm. I have a red cabbage (which might be fine when i get back). A search for cabbage and plantain recipes turned up an easy recipe, Sweet and Sour Cabbage with Plantains. My variation went something like:


gurgles of balsamic vinegar
scoop of a sweet jalapeno relish
couple dashes of dried onion
some water
some cornstarch

mix in bowl and reserve

couple tablespoons of cooking oil

put in cast iron frying pan, turn heat to high

Slice plantain into "coins." Carefully arrange all the slices in the frying pan. Cut up red cabbage, about the same volume as the plantain. Turn plantain. Once plantain is golden or a little dark toss cabbage on top, then toss. Add cornstarch mixture and toss until cabbage seems done and sauce is thickened.

Eat.

It's not bad at all. I can't imagine adding any sugar: it's plenty sweet. The colors and textures are nice compliments. I don't know what it would go with in a "normal" meal, but it suits me right now.
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Sunday, December 18th, 2011 06:44 am
Yesterday was a food day. I met some friends at the Sunnyvale Farmers Market for warm drinks and chatted for a long while, then we went and wandered the market. As usual, i came home feeling like i'd bought food enough to prepare for a nuclear winter.

The bulkiest of the purchase were the veggies for stock: a bundle of carrots with their greens, leeks, and a celery that was over three foot tall, mostly leaves and gone somewhat pithy in the stalks. The carrots and leek roots i've reserved for later, but a rich celery based broth is ready for the next few weeks.

Once all the greens were chopped up (along with a lingering half onion and the sad limp carrots from the bottom of the veggie bin) i went to making a fruit compote with the sad grapes and the persimmons i brought back from my parents tree and the blemished fifty cent a pound apples at the market. I was impressed how the grapes plumped up and the apples shrunk in the cooking. The mollasses and honey sweetened fruit should keep while we're away over the middle of the week.

Beets sit in the drainer. I couldn't decide on red or orange, so i've both. I need to cook the greens today, but the beets along with the winter squash, pomegranate, and celery root will keep for next weekend.

Dungeness crab were only $5/lb at the grocery, but i learned last year (or the year before?) that i don't want to be messing with crab that has sat a couple of days in the fridge. We didn't die, but no point testing the limits.

At the grocery i indulged in everything but the crab so that we can have festive meals when we get back from our anniversary trip. Most of the indulgences were in cheeses: i refrained from repurchasing the aged provolone that delighted me over Thanksgiving and chose an English cheese with cranberries. I also bought a roll of gingerbread cookie dough and icing and sprinkles as a half step towards holiday baking.

A little later, after a run to the grocery to get more mollasses, i worked on the steamed brown bread (Original recipe here). The recipe calls for three grains: whole wheat, corn meal, and rye, in equal proportion. Remarkably, while i did not have rye flour, i had the gluten free rye substitute, teff. Given the cornmeal, i substituted corn flour for the whole wheat, and added a touch of xanthan gum to make up for the lack of wheat. I think i could have left it out, actually. I didn't have a can but had a vintage aluminum baking mold that held the volume of the dough made. I forgot to butter it, but even remembering that would not have helped resolve the issue of letting the water all boil out of the pot.

Still, scorched pot and all, it tasted right and good, and i will make this again. I'm tempted to try without the brown mollasses and teff and just make a steamed cornbread this way. The texture is lovely, the fat content is just that of the milk used, it's very satisfying.
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Wednesday, May 11th, 2011 10:24 am
Yesterday's use of the Pomodoro timer was extremely helpful. I've distractions that i can't really do anything about. By working until the timer went off and then really trying to allow myself to Take a Break (looking outside, letting go), then moving back to a short task, i think i was able to keep moving and not dwell.

I'm not sure how well it will work at other times: the intensity i had this weekend was draining.

When i got home last night, i had a reasonable amount of energy, so i set to making the seafood gumbo i'd put on our menu. In the first step, making the roux, i realized that i wasn't going to be using wheat flour so, yet again, i would not be following a recipe. I made my roux with the masa for tamales and extra corn starch. It did seem to transition to a golden then nut brown, so that was gratifying. Another deviation was to choose to use a tomato-roasted red bell pepper soup that has some cream in it as a replacement for the chicken stock and canned crushed tomatoes. As that was already rather thick, i only simmered for an hour, not two, before adding the seafood.

The recipe i had must have been for an army regiment as halved it would feed a large family.

After we ate and we were partitioning up the remainder, i recalled that i left out the file i'd bought which was the inspiration to make the gumbo in the first place.
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Monday, April 25th, 2011 06:39 pm
I'm trying to do Loving Kindness micro meditations every time i itch. I considered every vehicle that caught my attention on the road this morning, realizing taupe, grey, and silver cars were mostly being left out.

I see there will be Morris dancing in the Palo Alto Baylands on Sunday: i'll be there to dance up the sun! And in sensible shoes.

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My date-walnut-lemon pilaf is a little mushy, but yum. Cardamon, tumeric, and clove work well with the lemon. (One whole small meyer lemon: with the pith scraped from the peel and the segments cut in half). I don't really notice the dates: not sure if i needed more or if they're subtle. The walnuts seem to add more texture than anything.

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This morning at the office's lagoon channel, there was a night heron and a snowy egret. I'll be in all week so observing those birds should be consistent. I've also been enjoying the unfurled leaves of the sweet gum tree just next to where i park. On Friday i noted that brown spiky seed pods are still hanging from the tree, but the new season's pods -- flowers, at this point, i guess -- are also present.

A pair of gulls, probably herring gulls, are on the ledge outside our fifth floor floor-to-ceiling windows, barking and laughing.

The Canadian goose is still nesting downstairs in a planter: we expect goslings this week.
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Friday, November 26th, 2010 07:08 am
Yay, very belated Kiva birthday gifts for the nephews purchased.

Note to self: evaporated milk does not last forever. However, 5 oz of milk, years past the "best by" date, causes no problems in the pumpkin pie.

Decadent food of the day: potatoes au gratin per the Chez Panisse/Alice Waters Vegetables cookbook. I think the potatoes i used must not have had enough loose starch to thicken the cream-broth mixture, so the potatoes and onion just swim in the heavy cream. I'd fried sage in butter to add as seasoning but all is overwhelmed by CREAM. Oddly, though, our favorite butterball, Mr M, who will show up moments after one quietly opens of ice cream or cheese, turned up his nose at the sauce left in the bowl.
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Monday, November 8th, 2010 06:12 am
My Monday morning meeting calendar is packed, leaving me pondering whether i get to the office at 8:15 or stay here.

I'm not feeling entirely well emotionally. Yesterday's morning was spent with friends and then Meeting and then the little "craft show." It was a stretch to share myself, and i didn't feel able to connect with people in the context. It was good to do, but i felt rattled. I haven't been able to really settle.

I did cook the greens and roots. I chopped the stems in half inch bits, sautéed them in butter, and then simmered in white wine. I then used an immersion blender on them -- and proved to myself why the stems are really not suitable for eating as the stringy bits kept getting caught up and i kept clearing them out. I think i managed to get most of the stringy bits out of the broth. We'll call that lesson learned. The lentils and greens turned out well, and i roasted an onion, the deep red beets, and the bright purple and white radishes with a dressing of some packaged white balsamic vinaigrette.

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The invitation for the craft show )
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Trying to purge my emotional discomfort. Also health notes. )
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Friday, November 5th, 2010 04:32 pm
Thursday i started work at 3:30 am, having awakened in the middle of night, calculated the amount of time to work and figured i'd be better off if i actually worked.

Our little group was having a "picnic" at my boss' place in Half Moon Bay at noon. I worked until my colleague showed up after 11. The "picnic" -- a catered meal on his deck, then a walk on the beach, then a lingering discussion in the sun -- was lovely, and i was home around 4:30. Brain fried.

I found a Terry Pratchett miniseries to watch and watched it to wind down. The Color of Magic. My first introduction to Pratchett. We were amused.

Sleep, and woke ... 4:30ish? I was up at 5 am and worked until the 10 am presentation. Which was gratifyingly received. It wasn't an audience that would have sat on questions. A few questions raised where i wasn't clear in my simplifications, and was able to clarify details; another few questions raised where we could get to the answers in the next slide. There's the question of what load we'll need to meet: we agreed we didn't have an amount from the product folks. However, it is a scary load possibility. (I don't think it's been appreciated in the pricing. *headdesk*) Most questions were questions generalists ask specialists, and we were the specialists, and had the answers.

All in all though, totally and completely unlike my oral exams which i left in tears.

Not that i thought it would be bad, but we really didn't know what level of investigation these folks wanted to go to. Basically, i think they understand our scope.

Now to cross my fingers that they report up the The Decider on Tuesday sensible things.

Anyhow. I took a nice lunch break on the deck, and then puttered at tasks this afternoon. There's something i really ought to do, but Brain is Burnt Out, and i'll look at it tomorrow.

So, i've called my parents, caught up on reading some blog posts but not all, have done a little triage on personal email, and made a move in Lexulous.

Also, dinner Wednesday was sardine pie, and i posted left over photo when i ate the meal today (lunch? breakfast? not sure). When asked for the recipe:

i started with the Tarte aux sardines recipe at http://www.easy-french-food.com/sardine-recipes.html I added a layer of tomato sauce and used less onions and tomatoes than called for. Next time i'll keep the tomato sauce but also use the recipe's amount of veggies. I just used one tin of sardines (timid beginning) but it could have been doubled. I added the sardines under the veggies, and added artichoke hearts. And i caramelized the onions a little. I can't follow a recipe.

I was thinking i'd use tuna if i was serving it to folks who might be put off by sardines.

I don't know if you want the gluten free crust, but it was a mix of egg, cottage cheese, baking powder, and corn flour (masa, not corn meal). I've been making this dough for a while and i just mix without measuring. Biscuit dough might be a good replacement for the rustic crust. Or, you know, real pie crust.


I just fielded a call from an older neighbor: we'll be cat sitting for her next week.

Now for meal two and more mild entertainment.
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Monday, November 1st, 2010 10:13 am
I bought five tins of sardines yesterday. I'm pondering recipes that are mainly for myself but that Christine might like. I'm a bit put off at the moment by eating the sardines just on rice crackers or broken up into a salad (bones and skin and all), but i suspect once i get back into the swing of sardines, that will be pleasant. (Smothering the sardines in a lovely French roll -- not an option right now for me.)

Cooking them in with something is probably the trick here.


* Tarte aux sardines -- http://www.easy-french-food.com/sardine-recipes.html -- Ok, i could make a "crust" of the corn flour+cottage cheese (it's more like a biscuit than a flaky crust) -- the idea of carmelizing onions and layering with fresh tomatoes and adding the sardines sounds lovely.

* this makes me think that Spanish flat bread made with chickpea flour might also be a good savory way to incorporate the sardines with a starch.

* Curried sardines -- http://www.dietivity.com/sardines-recipes-to-snack-on-much-healthier-than-big-fish/ -- one of those recipes that could be adapted. I rather think curried with white beans might be a texture friendly way of transitioning.... I like that it's a sauce for over rice. [This page repeats the French sardine tart.]

* Avocado & sardine mousse -- http://chickenofthesea.com/recipe_detail.aspx?did=1157 -- this beats some of the mousse recipes with butter!

* This recipe from Venice is intriguing -- http://www.venice-italy-veneto.com/sardine-recipes.html -- i can't tell if it's for fresh or canned sardines.....
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Monday, October 25th, 2010 12:41 pm
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My doctor thinks Christine & i are a cute couple. We are!

Just wolfed down a lunch that actually tasted better than i imagined: vegetables cooked au vin, hummus, and spinach. The veggies included one carrot and several celery stalks that were happy, , and a bunch of parsley - stems and all - that was beginning to look wan, very sad bundle of green onions that we couldn't find when we cooked the recipe we bought them for, and some romaine hearts that were aging at the bottom of the fridge. I'm not sure cooked romaine has much nutritive value, but it didn't hurt. The parsley stems could have been chopped more finely.
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Sunday, September 19th, 2010 07:25 am
Yesterday's wedding was wonderful, and i came away with on blister, and eggplant and being on my feet for hours. Christine looked lovely but had gotten very distressing professional email right before hand and, in her words, had the wind knocked out of her.

So that was 9:30 to 3:45 out of the house.

I read the rest of Lavinia, and should very much enjoy reading similar historical period pieces. While La Guin's novel has some beauty in it that can be ascribed to her homage to Virgil and some appeal that is due to La Guin's sensibilities, i think i'd still find other work that tries to be as true to archaeological or anthropological understandings rewarding.

http://www.rmki.kfki.hu/~lukacs/WHYROME.htm is a curious piece of work. After spending some time skimming the 'net, i think i should find a nice contemporary archaeological and anthropological summary of the pre and early Rome period.

*looks at books beside bed*

Or not. I'm not lacking for things to read.

I think i'm skipping Meeting this morning and will slowly assemble my week ahead.

I'm very happy with the effect of the topical steroid for my mouth that i took last evening, and soaking my fingers in epsom water seems to have helped with the infections under my fingernails: i'll find another book to read while soaking today. (Did i not mention the tiny but painful infections? TMI ) I don't know what's going on but i'm clearly susceptible to infection right now). My ring finger, now diagnosed as Dyshidrotic eczema, has a cluster of blisters near the top knuckle. I feel clear that my wedding ring isn't the main cause (flares have cleared and then returned without me wearing the ring) so i'm keeping it on, unless the blisters expand a good bit more.

So, i do have a stack of annual medical things to do, appointments to make with my body therapist. I still want to stay free of a dental cleaning: i could not take the pain right now.

I have a great deal of work-financial stuff to take care of: meeting registrations, ACM membership, and the expenses of these last two trips.

That's enough, quite enough, for today.

Except i think i'm going to make a mild Baba ghanoush derivative, with microwaved eggplant, tahini, a dash of lemon juice & salt (less than i would normally like), powdered onion and maybe a dash of cumin. I could also make hummus. And then make some very soft almojábana (a soft corn flour and cheese bread) that i can use as vehicle for the hummus and baba ghanoush. I think the Central American corn flavors will stand nicely with the Levantine flavors.

Then i will stuff my face. YUM.

Also, polenta. I should make polenta today.

One silver lining for leaving behind wheat is that it has pushed me into dietary adventures that have been delightfully rewarding.
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Monday, September 6th, 2010 08:19 am
I slept in again Saturday. Health inventory )

Saturday we cleaned house. Dusting even occurred. The public spaces of the house are quite clean: the plants on the deck trimmed back and tidied, birdseed swept up, the roomba refurbished and able to run for a long time, the big red vacuum cleaner out and places the roomba doesn't do well, done, dusting in the living room, tidied and the new bookshelves taking on stuff. Christine took on the bathroom and kitchen to spare my hand water contact.

My brother was going to break the Ramadan fast with his in-laws, but his brother in law was able to get him to us a little earlier. It was after dark when we went out to dinner with him. He'd just arrived from China that morning, and had little sleep, so he fell asleep, very quickly when we came home. He didn't seem to be stirring until 7 am. He and i sat on the deck and drank tea, then drove up to a Hobee's for breakfast, and left him at the airport around 10:30. He seemed well, not terribly stressed. He's a touch homesick for the States, it seems. They're in the adoption process for a daughter, and my SIL has a very good job now, so they aren't in a rush to return, but i don't think he intends to stay there a whole decade. They're at the six year mark now. My brother's family and adopting cross-cultures. )

The rest of the day was low-key, as the cleaning Saturday had been intense. We watched "Red Riding: 1974" and didn't like it. It seemed to go on forever: just a little too experimental. I'm trying to decide what it is that makes this a little boring and Krzysztof Kieslowski's Decalogue powerful. I suppose that the bleak story of Red Riding set in the context of horrible violence and corruption is just too over-the top. A bleak story set in the mundanity of everyday life, told in a more challenging cinematographic language is one thing, but then to season it with brutal scenes of torture and a backdrop of abuse and violence just seems gratuitous to me. While i'm intellectually tempted by the next two episodes (shot in different media by different directors), i'm really not interested in the story.

We had a pleasant two mile evening walk, with many critter sightings. Most impressively was seeing the family of five raccoons leaving the shelter of a utility room of an housing complex. We'd seen the single mother raccoon in that area before, and had been warned she had several babies.

I made a yummy (as possible) pot-pie with the Maseca corn flour filled with barely seasoned black beans, cheddar cheese, and avocados in one of my tiny loaf pans. My guess of 350° for 25 minutes was on the nose. Bland, ok, but good. I have plenty of corn in my diet now.

I have Meeting responsibilities that are a bit much for me, and i'm going to try and pass them over to others. Oh my, Meeting for business is this coming Sunday. *Swoon* The point is, i lecture myself, that work for pay and work as a volunteer, should all be done from the center and not from the place of stress. How am i going to stay centered the next two weeks?

I'm up early today, need to get in another walk, need to come up with bland meals for the week, peoplesoft, tidy the deck area, and look at the todo lists.... From the center. And carrot juice. I should go ahead and make carrot juice.
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Tuesday, August 31st, 2010 06:16 am
I bought corn flour this past shopping trip and have skimmed through http://www.donamasita.com/en/recetas/ , letting the traditional recipes inspire me. On Sunday afternoon, i started with the http://www.donamasita.com/en/receta/ALMOJ%C1BANAS.html and made two variations. One half of the batch had peanut butter and sugar added, the other had the last of a black olive hummus added. I was looking for a soft crumb and this produced a warm little bun that was soft and gentle to eat with flavor. Last night i used the same recipe (now down to "one egg, some baking powder, some cottage cheese, corn flour to make the right consistency dough," because it seems awfully forgiving) and dropped the balls into a pot of simmering and pureed creamed corn seasoned with paprika and onion powder. That i then ladled over half an avocado, in small slices, and i had another soft and gentle meal.

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I just took far too much time taking an airline survey. I'm basically satisfied, but my expectations are abysmal. I don't think i fly enough to be able to tell the difference between most of the core airlines: this trip i was on American, United, and US Air. The survey reminded me of the Clooney movie "Up in the Air," with its context of frequent flyer super point accumulation. If i were a frequent flyer, i suppose i might develop some loyalty for efficiency's sake, but at my current rate of flying -- it's all the same, it seems. In reflecting on "Up in the Air" though, i realized i had completely forgotten how it ended. My memory stops when the romance between Clooney and the other power traveler skids to a halt as he finds he is her escape. I skimmed the synopsis in Wikipedia: i wonder if my memory ended with the end of the "traditional" narrative of girl meets boy.

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Today is a writing about work day, and i'm already on a call. This is the new division meeting (since the beginning of July), including the folks i went through that personality assessment with last week. The last half has been about a cube reorganization that's going on in the Ohio office.

What to say about work? I need to be aware about the "i can't" reaction and give myself time to recover from it. Step away from the "i can't" trigger and give myself time to let my back of mind solve the problem. I don't know what to do about the overwhelm.
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Sunday, July 4th, 2010 05:40 pm
Today during Worship i had two strong sense-images come to mind. One puzzles me, a sense of being feathered and fluffing up my plumage on my neck ruff and and crest. Later though, a deep emotional reaction overcame me as a sense-image of wet clay with groves of the potter's fingers. I wept for a while after that sense image came to mind, uncertain why i was weeping, but discussion with Christine after seems clear. It's a classic image of transformation, and i do continue to meditate on the creative-destructive transformative power while trying to stay open to being transformed. After this winter's depression i worry about being open to transformation, worry whether i can trust that there will be replenishment for all that is consumed. I come home tired and weary. "Worship. You're doing it wrong," lol-cats through my head. Shouldn't i return from worship filled and replenished? Like therapy, like exercise, i don't think it's entirely a bad sign if i'm tired after worship. Wiccan circles acknowledge the energy expended and often plan to have food ready after a circle. I'm not just sitting there doing nothing in the hour.

I also spent time today holding Christine in mind. I worry about how she longs for people who will reach out to her, how much she needs a mentor, and how in balance against that is a prickliness, a lack of trust. I think back a decade plus to when she was willing to work with a therapist on how she didn't trust people, how she was investing time into a couple of start ups with some experienced business men, and how the therapist turned out to be part of a cult. Meanwhile, the dot com bubble burst, and with the distance of being a continent away from her colleagues, those relationships dissipated. I rather think she hasn't wanted to contact those men since transitioning.

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This morning i was tippity tapping when i realized that if i was going to make a pie of the sad wizened fruit in the fridge, i'd need to start there and then. So, one fruit pie with coconut crust:
recipe )

I whisked off to coffee with my ex-colleagues, then opened meeting and had a very pleasant chat with BG (recently of our meeting) who is visiting from NC. She told me some things about RTP-area meetings: apparently the Durham meeting is quite large. I ponder attending that one the next time i'm in the area if my sister & her family are able to join me. (The small Chapel Hill meeting has seemed comfortable to me, so far, when i visit.) Home, to chat with Christine, got a rug settled (finally, since The Carpet Cleaning), and also put up the last of the glassware from The Carpet Cleaning. The afternoon progressed with some correspondence completed and the annual viewing of Jaws. The DVD is boxed, awaiting Phase II of The Hall project, so we watched the Netflix streaming -- but did not watch Jaws II, III, or IV, also on Netflix. I actually did some crochet while the movie played: a cover for the fraying handle on my favorite Libery of London pattern tote. My sister in law called: we now have plans to see her & the kids on Wednesday and the weekend of the 17th. We puttered some more: Google notified us of a phishing site being run from our server: our phpMyAdmin was far out of date and had been exploited. It's off: i hope we found everything. I feel weary. An attempted early evening nap failed, and i finished reading Book 1 of The Moth.

Right now fireworks are booming around the bay. I feel tired still, tried an onion/celery/zucchini dish and a vicken patty or a late dinner. Yesterday i fell asleep while watching a video with Christine: this is incredibly rare for me. I suspect the adrenaline of returning from travel to significant changes at work has finally worn off and i'm getting the rest i need.

I don't think i'm going to get to making dye this weekend: then again, maybe i will. Next weekend would be great for dyeing clothes. I do want to plan my next quarter this weekend.
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Tuesday, May 4th, 2010 06:18 am
Continuing with the network )

One happy thought: i'm learning enough of the tools of the trade that i could imagine being a household or SOHO network consultant. Like my Dad's escapist fantasy of living in a shack in the woods, i've developed a fantasy of living in some tiny mobile house. Today i add a job title: itinerant network analyst.

Yesterday's workday was a C. Average. I suppose i should accept that with some sort of "most days will be average" equanimity, but -. I cut myself off there: how to balance compassion and challenge, desire to be excellent against the fear that the only other option is failure.

The evening though, was not bad. I called Christine as i left work and we planned my evening, Christine taking notes as i drove. I made dinner (a rarity) as it sounded like Christine was getting work done and i needed to do something. So, pan seared scallops in kiwi teriyaki sauce. As usual, i read a couple recipes (here & here), then decamped to the kitchen. For acid i used an orange and discovered we were out of rice wine vinegar. It could have used a touch more acid. For four kiwi i used a cup of veggie broth, and at Christine's request, teriyaki sauce. I think the teriyaki dominated. We watched "Lie To Me" while eating dinner, a criminal procedural based on body language.

I also made an oversight + personal call to someone in Meeting (a half hour with S-- W--, a wonderful and grounded older woman, who has been through the recent grief of watching her sister die of cancer, and who is going to be on the support/clearness committee i've been on). I did the things on my short list of things to do; i did not have exercise on the list and did not get to that. I was exhausted suddenly and crawled to bed a little early.

I do wish i'd been able to start the shibori on the second nightgown (i am currently hoping my dye work will be so fabulous that we'll wear the dresses as dresses) when i'd finished eating but we were still watching. That, or more white crocheted flowers for a gift for Mom. (It must now be a September birthday gift, not a Mother's Day gift, i calculate.) I'm pondering buying some aprons from Dharma to use as is (until stained). Dharma can't be completely sure that the conditions in China are good, but i'm happy to give them their business because they try to only do fair business. [Bottom of page.]

Too much on the to do list clearly overwhelms me. Christine's help -- laughing, when i had completed the list with, "and then i'll sit and work in the office for a while," and gently suggesting that i don't have a good grasp of time -- is useful.