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Sunday, January 28th, 2024 06:01 pm

The hellebore in the front are budding -- i've not visited the ones i transplanted from Mom's woodland patio yet. And i saw my first bittercress with buds.

Today i scrubbed the front steps. There's still a ... patina  ... on the bricks and sandstone, which i appreciate from a wabi sabi aesthetic and the general principle that patinas are protective layers.  I think this spring after the pine pollen-calypse[1] i will use a touch of bleach though, because the algae growth  on these north facing steps is pretty significant.

[1] note that "calypse" in "Apocalypse" is from the Greek /kaluptein/ ‘to cover’ -- and that is PERFECT.

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In other news, i finally had all the usual caffeine today. I'm still eating much lighter and differently. Christine's eating normally today, so hopefully i'll be fine tomorrow. My sister came down with similar the same day Christine did, which was just 24 hours or so after visiting with Dad. I'm finally coming down on the side that this is some contagious misery as Dad's sweetheart and someone else in the organization Dad is involved in also has misery.

--== ∞ ==--

These photos were taken on Sun 21, when i was raking the mossy glade (and other areas):Read more... )

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Sunday, December 10th, 2023 01:14 pm

Today is a rainy day. I sit with a view of the north side of the pines and the depths of the woods. I can see the sky through the trees -- the hill crests and drops off, leaving sky to be seen now that the wall of green has faded away.  In the dull directionless light most of the depth of the woods seems dark, but the pines closest to me seem to glow green with lichen growth. I rarely notice the color except on rainy days during winter months.

Satellite image of elevations near home

Earlier today mist filled the woods giving a sudden sense of depth. It's now a flat wall again except for these pines popping out of the gloom.

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Tuesday, October 24th, 2023 06:30 am
The past few mornings have been clear when i went out with starry, starry skies. And it's quiet: the temperatures have changed. I think this was the first morning when even waiting and focusing imy listening, i didn't hear frogs or insects, even from over the crest of the hill and the creek behind our house. It may be that i just know from the map that it's there, but i feel i can hear the sounds from that direction in the spring and fall when the sounds directly around the house have quieted.

It dropped to the freezing point at 6:42 AM, per the new sensor sitting in the front yard. It's clear there, and should get the coldest and hottest temps. It's also in a sleeve of plastic louvers, so that it can be in a sunny area and still report air temperature. I think i need to replace the sensor at the back fence: it reported temperatures in the 50s (F) for too long. And even though the woods makes its own climate, the trees are not that insulating. First, i thought it was that the battery was dying (and eventually the sensor stopped transmitting), but i replaced it yesterday. I don't know how far back in time i am going to have to distrust its readings.

I've been cranky about the autumn, a sign of the mild depression. I think i'm beginning to appreciate the color in the trees, even though there isn't bright shouts of clear color. The dogwood i can see from my office window and the front porch is such a dull garnet that i have muttered to myself about its mournful aspect. But walking up the drive this weekend, the sun through the leaves was resplendent. And while most of the trees around our home -- other than the persistent pines -- sort of drain the lushness from the green, leaving a dull yellowing green, this weekend the light in the woods (again, backlit leaves!) was a golden color. Maybe color change is on its way.

I still have three persimmons on the persimmon tree: i did not loose them to critters or humidity despite the stilt grass encircling the tree. I think one chestnut cluster is gone (squirrels?) but one is still high in the tree.

I keep trying to catch my negative thoughts and turn them. Particularly my frustration at not getting as much stilt grass out before it's gone to seed. I am making progress on ecosystem restoration here though: it's going to be OK.

So, now i can just focus on getting the sweet gums that shade the solar panels removed. (Oh, the species tree is not so colorful as the brilliant liquidambar street trees in Mountain View, CA) The black cherries have already lost their leaves, so they can stay. And i can look forward to picking out and planting some colorful shorter shade trees, like sourwood. Maybe some fringe trees (which have drupes that can be cured like olives).
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Wednesday, October 20th, 2021 07:47 am
Driving to the doctor's appointment i noticed a few trees with a bit of blush on the crown. In general, the trees seem green with the yellow dapples of leaf change here and there. Plenty pf leaves on the ground.

I'm growing to trust this doctor more. He heard my concern about a high heart rate event, asked detailed questions, and then was able to suggest some alternative causes and describe the details around worrisome possibilities that didn't line up with my experience.

I had conversations with my sister around ADHD and then with my therapist, and then with Christine. My sister is cautiously accepting. Her cryptic statement meant apparently that her kids pointed it out to her, and told her of my brother's son's diagnosis. She talked to my brother who has apparently self diagnosed himself.

My therapist disclaimed any up-to-date knowledge but encouraged me to read up.

Christine was very dubious, suggested a certain amount of learned behavior from my parents/mother, but as the evening went by and i shared things, she was laughing how some of the ways we have just noticed as differences between us were mentioned as characteristics.

I read

Sarkis, Stephanie Moulton, and Patricia O. Quinn, Adult ADD: A Guide for the Newly Diagnosed (Oakland, UNITED STATES: New Harbinger Publications, 2011), NC-Live <http://ebookcentral.proquest.com/lib/chathamnc-ebooks/detail.action?docid=776107> [accessed 19 October 2021]


which was helpful, if a decade old. Assuming no great changes, a diagnosis seems to require impairment. I look at the word impairment and note that it's a cultural judgement and not a scientific assessment. Culturally, i'm not impaired, but Christine acknowledged (and suggested the term) cognitive burden. I do think some of the ways in which AHDH causes difference has created a burden for me.

Reading "symptoms" or diagnostic criteria said many ways and put in different contexts, i see some patterns. I am fascinated that the antidepressant i find very useful is also used for ADHD, and the language i use to describe it seems very tied to ADHD -- it makes it possible for me to be motivated.

I didn't pull this journal's LiveJournal title to Dreamwidth, apparently, but "Moving at the Speed of Procrastination" continues to be a frame i have for myself -- and there's a tie with the ADHD functions.

Apparently there's ties with depression -- whether causal or correlated apparently seem hard to untangle. ADHD is a dopamine deficiency.

I looked at

Safren, Steven, Susan Sprich, Michael W. Otto, and Michael W. Otto, Mastering Your Adult ADHD, Client Workbook: A Cognitive-Behavioral Treatment Program (New York, UNITED KINGDOM: Oxford University Press, Incorporated, 2005), NC-Live <http://ebookcentral.proquest.com/lib/chathamnc-ebooks/detail.action?docid=430325> [accessed 19 October 2021]


for a short time, then closed it up. Before i embark further, i want to coordinate with my therapist. The whole model of time management that i have struggled with for years isn't going to magically be fixed because i have a label. We have been working on me accepting that what i am doing is OK. Me trying to tilt at time management again may not be the right direction for me. I was surprised at how much visceral anger i could tap just reading a patronizing paragraph about getting organized using a filing cabinet. I know what organized looks like, i understand the goal, it just falls apart so fast and takes all my energy to keep up. I could stay organized OR get things done.

Anyhow. Off to the day.
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Monday, May 3rd, 2021 06:42 am
May Day!

Blooming:
* Rose buds on the miniature roses.
* Blue eyed grass.
* Hyacinth-like Camassia leichtlinii ‘Blue Danube’, a western US native. The larger, pale blue native quamasn, Camassia scilloides has been blooming in the rain garden.
* Solomon's plume! A wild plant i had rescued when we cleared, thinking it looked like a nice plant. I never noticed it blooming before. An arcing stem with alternating linear leaves (looking much like Solomon's Seal) but ending with a little starry plume of flowers.
* Eastern columbine, small red and yellow rocket flowers dangling from tall thin stems
* Virgina waterleaf with it's curling cormb of pale blue flowers.
* Some sort of fleabane, maybe Erigeron philadelphicus -- the large patch in the glade looks lovely, and a new patch is at the foot of the mulberry. This daisy like flower looks lovely and not weedy.
* The mulberry is blooming!
* The chestnut might be blooming, or budding, at least
* blackberries!
* Lyre leaf sage's purple spikes.
* Sage itself -- and the sage flowers have a marvelous flavor - strong like sage, but marvelous
* Bearded iris from the previous owners, i think it's 'Jurassic Park' with greenish-yellow standards and purple falls.
* Green and gold, a low growing gold Asteraceae flower.
* the moss phlox, another low growing ground cover, is fading
* Some white ornamental onions that need to be moved somewhere.
* A bouquet of rain lilies, Zephyranthes atamasco in the rain garden
* Some scarlet clover, here and there, and the white Dutch clover everywhere.
* Japanese false hawkweed -- invasive and not particularly attractive
* Star of Bethlehem -- invasive and LOVELY
* Some lingering spring beauties
* Chives and the walking onions and many of the brassicas
* An occasional violet and the mock strawberries.
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Wednesday, April 21st, 2021 07:36 am
At lunch yesterday a mixed swarm of mayflies and dragonflies were dancing in the sunlight of the back orchard. The tree canopy now creates shade for the back woods, and the noon sun spotlit the flies against the green-dark backdrop. Marlowe and Carrie were leaping up at the large, darting flies as they swooped low over their heads. A sun dapple splashed on a patch of pink and purple phlox at the base of a tree, making it look iridescent in the grass. It was a magical spring scene and we just drank it in.

In therapy, discussed how i know what i want to do. I *want* to play with the word *want* and try to replace all the times i think to myself i _must_, i _have to_, i _should_.
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Sunday, April 11th, 2021 07:03 am
Excitement in the last week, i finally made a dish of Sochan or cutleaf coneflower. I had a plant show up a few years ago from seed, identified it as Rudbeckia laciniata, found out about its edibility, moved it to the garden plot, let it get established -- and now i've eaten it. I'm delighted. I want a huge patch -- or several patches -- of it. It's attractive and it tastes good. I like brassica greens (less mustard, more the others), but sochan is probably more attractive -- less bitter. And, they are the size of brassica greens, not fiddly like picking violet greens. Perennial greens, yippee!

Greening up, fruit trees, plants, etc )

[1] I do hope more don't die of whatever it is that is killing them here. I suppose it could be old age, but i suspect anthracnose. Appalachian Spring is resistant - and it looks like it's going to be a challenge to track it down.
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Friday, April 9th, 2021 06:46 am
From Thursday morning:

I've been delighted by evening Barred Owl calls for over a week. Not every night but many nights, including the raucous carrying on that is spring delight. On Easter, when i was at my parents with my sister and her husband and daughter, a Barred owl swooped through the woods and caught my eye, perching on a tree outside the dining area. We got a good look at the bird, a magical moment to add to the first time in a year gathering around the table.

Tuesday night i saw my first firefly; last night another.

Dawn this morning i could just see the old crescent of the moon in the east. Next month the wall of green will have erased glimpses of the sky anywhere from the horizon up to forty degrees.

Headed over to M&D's as sister is taking a spring break trip to the mountains ("Not what we were expecting, kinda deliverance," she said about arrival.) Dad's had a rough few days: iPad woes, some times where his needs to go get things done conflicted with Mom's desire to direct him to get things [1] out for her (leaving the job of putting it back on him as well)[2], and the doctor going over Mom's living will with them forcing him to think about mortality and her current condition.


[1] Crystal drinkware and china dishes, this time.
[2] Mom's stroke immobilized leg and arm limit her abilities, her dementia has made stroke recovery out of the question.
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Monday, April 5th, 2021 07:55 am
Friday morning, Saturday morning (25°F), and Sunday morning had frosts or more. Some things seem no worse for wear. The saucer magnolia's open flowers all turned a rust red and will fall over the next few days, but new buds and leaves will quickly take the place of the frozen flowers.

The mulberry leaves crumble at the touch. Little bits of chestnut and fig leaves that stick out from the buds do too. Stilt grass is unfazed.

The good of the past three days was taking the time off and being outside. Also a brief gather with parents, L, her husband and daughter. (Sister and parents fully vaccinated, brother-in-law and myself one shot of Moderna). Her son is off on a vacation with a friend's family on a catamaran in the Caribbean. This is life like my brother's family, not familiar to me, but i'm glad for both him and my sister for weighing the risks and letting him go. Christine stayed home knowing she was in no place to see people.

Invasive plants here:an interstitial where i distract myself )

I am surprised that no where in the threats is Duchesnea indica, a strawberry-like plant from India that sprawls EVERY where. It is, i have found out, an edible green. A little fuzzier than i prefer, but i tossed it in with my salad last night - violets, garden sorrel, radiccio, the celery that is looking like celery!, lemon balm and anise hyssop, an onion leaf. It was fine! There's no way i can eat it out of existence, but it's nice to know.

Christine's blues have gotten to me off and on, triggering my own tears; i'm trying to let it pass through me and move on.

I hope that i can return to work with a crisp focus. I did spend some time on the Meeting this weekend -- over an hour on a memo about the previous weekends meeting. I did get a somewhat manipulative email from C hoping i would stay until the new structure is in place. I indicated i hoped we'd be done before my deadline too.

I do feel i have such high maintenance needs.
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Monday, March 22nd, 2021 06:41 am
Saturday morning:

Thanks to [personal profile] sonia for pointing out that http://riskliteracy.org/ has a math test that is adaptive. By judging your response to each question, it selects the next question as a harder or easier one to more quickly score your response.

Carpenter dude coming today. Hoping for progress. Christine and i looked at the VERY rough cut more or less 8" wide cedar boards and identified the most aesthetic roughness bits for our balusters. Christine is very taken with the "eyes" or knots that mark where the branches were, and so we'll leave some at their full 8" width. This is going to be very rustic and i hope very charming. The 2x4 have significant heart wood and are just now quite red.

Discovered that redbuds are about to bloom when a dead tree fell and ripped a huge branch off an old redbud. I'll trim those for vases today and get rid of the winter arrangements. Where "Get rid of" means i want to find some place to stash the rye and sorghum seed heads that are so lovely still. Not the garage: the mice will eat them.

Speaking of mice, Marlowe launched herself off the porch railing to the ground to try and catch something -- i believe a rodent, given her poking around when she came up prey-less.

Significant frost this morning. I hope the saucer magnolia was sheltered enough. I decided that since i am supposed to not let the blueberries bear fruit yet i'd let the frost do what it will. The curly kale in the garden is bolting, making me rather grumpy.

Monday morning:

Weekend was glorious weather, perfect for working outside. And so i did. I'm sore and very achy, but very pleased as all the chipping is caught up, a decent amount of chips are applied to the new gardening spot, and the woods on the east side of the yard is all cleared up. I dream of chinquapins -- Castanea pumila, a dwarf chestnut -- and Chicasaw plums getting a good afternoon sun there. A few cedars and a holly will also get some sun and grow to help screen whatever future use is made of the current 60 acre woodslot. Plenty of clearing still to do, but i think it will all be shaded. At the back of our lot i realize that there are some open woods: it's not all thicket with a battle through huge grape vines and autumn olive. I can imagine planting the American crab apples (i am trying to get started from seed) under the huge maples. First, to get a path through the thickets. Generally, once the leaves come out i have avoided the woods. Maybe this year i'll start venturing.

VERY VERY VERY excited about the carpenter's work. The posts are in place, and the raw cedar delights me. I realize Carolina wrens will now visit and pull shreds of bark off to take off for their nests. I think his tools may have dropped oil on the sandstone so i will need to clean those spots -- hopefully before Christine notices.

Carrie developed a limp on Friday evening. She's been getting better all weekend. She whimpered a little Friday night, but has generally been problem solving and doing what she wants while favoring the leg. She avoids letting us put her harness on to help her up and down the porch stairs. I do wish we had a 24/7 vet near by. We were spoiled by that in California. Christine did call and get an appointment (the kennel service at the vet is open for the weekend so there's someone to call).

I had good phone chats with my dad and sister, took mom for a virtual walk around the yard. Violets burst forth by Sunday. The saucer magnolia is spectacular and will get more glorious.
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Sunday, March 14th, 2021 08:14 pm
Saturday: finished distributing manure (fie, mainly water, they ripped my sister off). This does not look like a layer of manure on top of the beds but little dollops raked around with the other amendments. I dunno, maybe i should have just picked a few beds to add it to. I have saved out a few bags for the pepper bed.

I moved some tussocks of my favorite grass and hopefully some Elephantopus tomentosus, a fascinating native wildflower that has great seedpods. I hope that the temporary relocation was sufficient to keep them alive until the installation in the garden bed: their stems will be pretty in the winter if they can make it through the weedy summer.

Then i walked through the woods with a pocket knife and poison and tried to kill the stands of Tree of Heaven i could find. Apparently, it's the wrong time of year. Walking through the woods -- think jungle -- thick canopy, the stilt grass knee high so you can't see your feet and the deep holes made by rotten pine stumps, the thorny autumn olive, the ticks, the copperheads.... MEH. I would love to make progress back into there, but the front is a little less thick and forbidding. Plenty of work to choose from.

Christine and i then walked Carrie over at Fearrington, and i could observe all the plantings around the little homes. Plenty of hellebore planted up close to Acanthus spinosus (Bear's Breeches) -- non-natives that thrive in this climate. It's tempting. The blooming periwinkle is not.

Sunday i very much missed the hour lost to the coming fall weekend. We had a gap in the overcast weather, bright blue skies to highlight how some cherry tree leaves have burst forth and the lilacs leaf buds have broken. So has the autumn olive -- a haze of green in the woods.

I did not do the Quaker work i really needed to then, so i must do it today. I hosted Meeting then after lunch i assembled the cross pieces for the king bed spring trellis. Christine came out to help with holding things up and level, and it looks OK: not like garbage in the yard. That was my fear given the reuse of "trash." Assuming i can reinforce the support posts as needed, it is a success.

I mowed, hitting the annoying clumps of wild onions that the deer and rabbits leave alone and hopefully getting most of the bittercress before it sets too much seed. I think i am making peace with the bitter cress, though -- a non native with tiny white flowers. The patch of yard that was the fenced area when we bought the house was covered with chickweed and tiny tiny little white flowers. I suppose it will all be Indian strawberry this summer. At least neither of those are currently a threat to wild areas. I ponder the futility of trying to choose which wildflowers grow.

I did not get to sleep well. I'm sure some of it is time change, then anxiety about insomnia.

The weather is crazy dry, despite the blanket of clouds that came in midday yesterday. Rain is forecast, which is needed. I don't understand rain when it's in the 50s with a dewpoint of 13°F, but hey, OK.

Off to buy lumber (i hope as the carpenter is free this weekend), do the Quaker work i've put off, and maybe get more gardening in before going back to work tomorrow. Very productive time off: i hope i can keep the momentum in the coming long evenings.
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Saturday, March 13th, 2021 06:59 am
Friday was Way Warmer Than Right for March.

Thursday changes: no bud breaks on lilac, but tiny slivers of lipstick pink visible on the saucer magnolia. The "Aunt Rachel" Peony -- one from Christine's aunt -- has sprouted! I haven't killed it! I'll move it to near the Aunt Rachel Apple (an heirloom apple from this county, selected with delight because Aunt Rachel is on the Apple side of Christine's family).


Friday, lots of pink visible in the micro "courtyard". Lots of bluets in the bit of "lawn" to the west of the garden plot! Huzzah! I do hope they grow up in the mossy glade, too, but i wonder if the moss is too thick. The spice bush and the spring beauties are blooming, both delicate signs of spring that don't shout their presence.

I'm sure i'll think of more. I distributed lime, feather meal, bone meal, and potassium in the garden plot, started on the manure, and found digging weeds in the sun too much. So i dug weeds out of the north berm in the orchard, which is mostly shaded by the pines still. I found a happy cluster of purple dahlia tuber and a few liatris corms, split them, and replanted them in a place that will be easier to see them with some peach colored glads that i has marked from last year.

Most of my gladiolas, collected from a large patch the previous owners let go rampant, are a soft pink, but a few are a peach color. I'd like more of the peach ones, so i'm rescuing those. I planted the area that's hard to reach, between catnip and the fig tree, with rescued pink glads. I need to get some boxes to send gladiola bulbs to others (and if you want some, let me know & send me your address).

Anyhow, back outside.
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Monday, March 1st, 2021 09:28 am
Here we are, as Christine and i tell each other, in the future. I am on out screened in back porch, essentially unchanged since we bought the house, other than some electrical outlet work, removal sof some of the many many wind chimes, and the addition of some furniture to the furniture left by the previous owners. I'm on the lounge they left. It is about 60°F damp, and overcast. I hear trucks and cars as they pass on the road, and airplane over head, a very loud chorus of frogs from the creek branches north and south of our house, crows in the distance, chickadees and other songbirds up close.

I've not seen any bluets this year, and worry that in the area they were most numerous i have changed too much for them to have lived (trampling some parts and burying, mulching others). I check the glade, where i hope they would thrive, to no effect.

No sign of spring beauties, not where the bricks were stacked by the masons, nor in the back porch moss area, nor where i've seen them wild. No sprouts on the peonies.

The star of Bethlehem continue to sprout everywhere along with the daffodils. I see a few buds on the daffodils. The Lenten rose, transplanted to the garden plot to protect it from the masons, has bloomed. An elm and a red maple that have great southern exposure are budding. There's no hint that the saucer magnolia is going to bloom. It's seemed such a mild winter, i would have thought plants would be rushing along, but -- while we haven't had the cold snap that other places had last month -- it has been pretty consistently frosty in the mornings.

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I keep getting sucked into plant searching. I will not buy more bulbs for the berm: i need a place to plant the seedlings i am growing. I will not buy more trees: i will wait for next fall. (I so want Chickasaw plums, varieties selected for larger fruit and better flavor. The few places i know have them out of stock. And i want some selected elderberries. But i have Chinqapins -- a shrubby cousin of chestnuts -- and native crabapple seeds sitting in moist soil outside, waiting to sprout this spring.)

Yesterday i lugged branches from near the glade, where the arborist had left them after cutting down the sweet gums that were too close to the back porch. At the drive circle i chipped them and added them to the growing pile. Yes - -i did get the chipper running again!

But now i can't start the wheeled string trimmer.

On Saturday i walked through the woods (since i couldn't start the string trimmer. There are two colonies of Tree of Heaven (Ailanthus altissima). I think two of the large trees i had noticed a couple of winters ago are dying from the scrape bark-apply glyphosphate technique. I have found a few other large trees (smaller than the big ones, but still mature) which i can treat, and i think i'll give the same treatment in a more select manner to some of the saplings or sprouts. The American linden i planted with my nephew back there seems to be OK.

Anyhow, all morning puttering here. I don't know where my time goes (well, some goes to looking at plants.)
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Wednesday, April 15th, 2020 10:13 pm
I think we came up with a good project for our cleaner: the back porch is coated with pollen and it’s why i think i am coughing. Yesterday she came over and gave the place a good clean out, and then there was disinfectant applied to touch-surfaces after she left. Given it’s outside and not a must-use space, it seemed a good way to balance needs.

A hummingbird is visiting the azalea outside the office window. I first saw them yesterday just after lunch (while on a call with my therapist) and then again just as i was settling in at my work desk. It seems odd to see them at this time? This will be such a crazy year with some plants taking advantage of the head start this unseasonably early spring is providing and possibly out competing plants that would otherwise be more successful.

On the other hand, we are getting a perfectly seasonable frost or freeze tonight. So the blooming blackberries, need cover as do the cucurbits. I’m glad i didn’t succumb to planting out the lemon grass. Meanwhile the greenhouse is closed and getting very warm, fourth Fahrenheit degrees warmer than the ambient temperature. I ‘m hoping I’m making the right choice with that — now that the sun has come out it could get to a hundred degrees. Hopefully the water in the tubs will warm and retain the heat a little bit after the sun goes down.

March 28th - high of 93°F (greenhouse high was 120°F, so i guess getting that hot today won’t be a disaster)
April 11th - low of 32°F (both on the back fence and in the greenhouse)

I have an asthmatic cough that started after sitting out on the pollen covered porch. Not really welcome these days.
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Monday, March 16th, 2020 06:58 am
A week ago i was double guessing my choice to not go to Ohio. I think the stress as the news changed day to day would have been intense: i'm glad i stayed home. It was Friday the 6th North Carolina had its second reported case, in my county. There were five more identified Monday a week ago. Thursday morning i made decisions about Meeting for Business and Meeting for Worship. It's felt like since Thursday i am continually surprised by news. "Wait, what?" i respond as the cases go up and up in state. It's 32 cases as i write. Christine notes how quiet it is with the absence of distant traffic: i agree.

As i drove across the lake yesterday, i thought, go fishing - perfect for social distancing.

Meanwhile, where did the promised rain go? I planted a bit in the garden yesterday after a long morning of Meeting and then a visit with Mom and Dad. The clay was cracked across the hard crusted top. Below that baked surface, an inch, the clay was moist and still able to sustain. That's one thing about the clay, it holds moisture longer than a sandy soil would. Once seedlings have roots down past the crust, it's good. It is, however, a challenge for getting seeds started.

The stilt grass seedlings have sprouted.

Just like the news, the weather of last week changed dramatically with a low of 28°F last Sunday, and now last night's low in the high 40s felt cool. Two of the three varieties of yellow daffodils burst into bloom Thursday -- the late blooming variety is taking its time. The dogwood sheltered by the house had broken flower bud, redbuds are blooming, the cherry tree at the south east corner of the house towers over with a spring green haze to its branches. The saucer magnolia is a riot of pink. The bright red-pink azalea has started blooming. The small clump of bluets in the herb garden have bloomed. Perennial flowers that died back over the winter have rosettes forming. The creeping phlox that have not been overrun -- a several year old planting of candy stripe phlox near the copse and last year's planting at the base of the "twins" - the multi trunk tulip poplar - have bloomed. My pansies from seed are actually blooming! The rapeseed plants that survived over last summer on the perms have sent up their yellow flowers (think fields of mustard). The miniature roses and the two rescue roses from the sale racks are looking vital. Mints -- especially where i have cut back the dead growth -- are green and growing. My horseradish didn't make it, but the wormwood i transplanted out of the garden area is thriving (deer don't eat it so i'm not wasting fenced space on it.)

If the weather is right (feh, where'd my half an inch of rain go?!) there will be cloud cover this week so the seedlings i set out yesterday and Saturday won't bake.

Fast food for breakfast and lunch yesterday. The Impossible whopper wowed me with the lovely tomato, lettuce, onions and pickle! I don't "build out" burgers when i have them at home, because i'm usually rushing food not making a meal when i have one. I was delighted to have plant based food available - i was expecting to have french fries - but i find the Impossible burger a little creepy, personally. I didn't dwell on it so that i could enjoy what i could of my meal on the run.

I'm exhausted: work last week was emotionally and intellectually exhausting, Saturday's yard work - breaking ground with the mattock in the bright sun - was physically exhausting, planning and running Meeting for Business and Worship - including offering telepresence - was socially exhausting ... I feel tears as i look at the week ahead and think of my energy.
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Tuesday, February 4th, 2020 07:33 am
Nephew work day was sweet and very productive. Christine was in good spirits so she lopped down some massive autumn olive and we chipped enough to mulch the north fence line of the orchard. W and i planted three trees, including the linden for my Swedish garden. When we went back to R--'s Rock (found by my Dad and brother before i'd even been to the property) to plant the linden, we saw a beech to the NE of the rock. I am delighted that there is one natively in the woods. Not surprised, exactly, but wondering where the mature beech tree is or was. This one ... i don't know how old it is but it's a good bit further along than the yearling tree i planted this year or the one planted last year.

Bad me did not call Grandmámá. Still on to do list.

Sunday C brought me breakfast in bed. Meeting went well. Achy all day. Christine's sister wants to watch all Oscar nominees so she and C watched Joker (which C thinks is brilliant and i don't think i will watch). D was blown away by it. The day was sparkling, and i tried sitting in the porch, but the breeze was a bit much.

Yesterday woke to cat piss on bed. Both C and i tired, exhausted, no spoons, moody.

We're watching the Nova planets episodes from season 36 in reverse order and watched Mars last night. Beautiful presentation, enthusiastic and diverse scientists, but much personification of everything. The language to describe how Mars' oceans evaporated - "stripped away" being the least loaded phrasing - surely it engages nonscientific viewers by creating emotional drama, but it irks me that the drama is told as if Mars was some poor victim (and Earth held up as the fortunate one). One CAN come up with emotional stories told from a satisfied Mars point of view.

It may be harder to emotionally see Different as something Satisfying for the party that is different -- but let's practice that for crying out loud.

I am thinking about data analysis using the nifty Jupyter Notebooks. Have done a tutorial and tiny work experiment. Tempted to do sentiment analysis on the corporate president's monthly emails. Thinking about data practices for my day to day life that would lead to interesting analysis. Have fired up IFTTT and Airtable to gather some digital footprint records. I imagine parsing exported journal entries and some of my health records, my rain measurements and temperature gauges. Smart power meter -- which surely saw some leap in use Thursday and yesterday as we washed and dried so much bedding.

Crazy warm weather has me frustrated i am behind in yard work and seed prep. Please let there be a little winter this month.
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Friday, March 29th, 2019 01:04 pm
Spring: salad with the tips of young pea vines, violets and dandelion, sorrel and miner's lettuce, and a bit of my cultivated lettuces.

Aphids and cabbage moth eggs are on the turnip greens. The turnips seem pretty tough, the yellow flowers are waving above them.
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Monday, December 10th, 2018 08:55 am
First, it's snowing again, since around 7:30. Big lovely flakes, some as big as feathers.

The first visitors to the feeder and scattered seed were the usual suspects. I didn't get around to removng the screen or washing the window, so i wasn't being obsessive about observations.

Then the grackles showed up. At least 40. They're so spooky, all of them rising with a thunder of wingbeats any time i move too quickly. Edward is in the kitchen watching from that window, so perhaps he is also spooking them.

Crows have followed the grackles, although not in the large numbers.

Huh. They've left. The mixed flock of songbirds mush have been waiting in another tree, because sparrows, juncos and chickadees are all back, feeding in the azalea just outside the window. Go to the feeder, little birds! (The feeder is in the light and i can focus the binoculars at that distance.)

Wait, grackles are back.

From inside a window, grackles on a bird feeder and on the snow covered ground, snow falling.
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Monday, December 10th, 2018 06:45 am
At 3 am, Carrie nudged me awake, and i passed letting her out duty to Christine. It was hard enough for me to get back asleep, but i must have managed.

We had a power blink long enough to reset the appliance clocks such that power came back at 5 am. I don't know if the blink or Christine turned on some "smart" lights. It looks like fewer of the households just off our road are without power, so the blink could have been the results of repair work. I have grown to assume many of our blinks and surges are due to breaks that leave others without power or repairs that bring them back. It's hard to know why we luck out with our power line that zig-zags above the road leading to our house when my parents in their proximate to more suburbia with a buried power line in their neighborhood spend so many storm events without power. Such as yesterday. From the maps, my sister probably lost power but has it back to day. My parents might have power back -- the polygon near their home is ambiguous and i think the people who manage the maps get sloppy during storms.

Snow still covers the ground, bright in the predawn gloam, despite the (barely) above freezing temperature last night. I think it's sleeting. The low tunnels i have covering lettuce and winter greens (in hopes of getting a kick start in the spring) have collapsed. While the snow is there, it's fine -- an insulating blanket. But i fear the snow will melt to day, then the temperature drop into the twenties tonight. I suppose i'll go out in the muck and try to get the tunnels back up.

And maybe tonight i'll work on the tea towels.
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Sunday, December 9th, 2018 03:30 pm
Friday morning found me eye-rolling at the umpteenth "Winter Storm Preparedness" email from Duke power and yet another cancellation of some weekend activity. A little winter mix and everyone panics. When a colleague asked about my preparation for the storm, i finally went and checked something other than the ten day forecast.

OH.

6"??

We don't get snow in December here. It did snow last year, a dusting falling from the sky, barely sticking. But real snow? (https://www.weather.gov/rah/rdusnowfall apparently, every now and then....)

So Christine picked up important supplies (cat food) on Friday, and Saturday i picked up a few more (birdseed and an aluminum scoop shovel to use as a snow shovel, because Christine said she wanted one). Dad came by on Saturday, and we finally tried to start the generator: no go. Next step is a small engine guy to check it out. We're also not prepared as far as propane goes for the fire place. The longest we have been without power was a half day after a lightning storm: my parents and my sister have to go days without, but we haven't. We're trying not to get cocky, and we do have water reserves at hand. Today we've had blinks, but no outage longeough to say "well, that's

Other than the errands and poking at the generator, i worked outside prepping ground for wildflower seed in a few places. It doesn't seem like much, but i was so terribly sore in the evening. I guess i did break up the clay that had become smooth and surface compacted over the past months of rain and re-made berms in the rain garden.

Wildflower seeds are so incredibly tiny. One copes by mixing with something: i chose vermiculite. I had a half gallon bucket of damp vermiculite and carefully tipped a tiny packet of near dust in, then mixed as carefully as i could. Then cast the vermiculite over the prepared areas: the rain garden, a low stretch along the fence (essentially the rain garden mix with tall lobelias), a stretch of swale (with the low growing plants from the rain garden mix), and a mix of ephemeral perennial lupine and virgina bluebells (a borage relative) for between the mulberries and pawpaw trees. I envision dense stands of flowers -- and also baked red clay with a scraggly single plant here and there. I hope eventually the lush garden vision comes true.

I'm left to still do the plantings for the full orchard areas, and i assume i'll need to run something over the soil to break the top crust of the clay.

This morning we woke to an incredible view of snow, around six inches. It looked like powdered sugar as Christine scooped a path for Carrie. The cats were indignant that their morning constitutional was disrupted. Christine and i went out and knocked snow off the fence: with the cat defense -- the forty-five degree in-hang -- a good deal of snow was caught and weighing them down. We walked down to the creek. Red-brown oak leaves floated in the black current by the snow covered banks under the trees bowed across the creek. As we waled back around the yard, we shook young pines and cedars to relieve them of some of their burden. Winds had the tile pines swaying, its beautiful and mesmerizing, except for the thought of them breaking under the weight and crashing down.

I've been planning my contribution to the family Yule meal. I'm going to stuff a side of salmon with a cranberry-juniper-rosemary mix and another side with a less adventurous lemon caper mix.

Otherwise, a very lazy day.